Its FAKHIRA's

2010-10-08T18:36:00.001+08:00

I, Hereby, announced that this blog is officially closed. Im moving to a new one (again). Like the previous one, the archives are still available, you're picture might still be in here. Feel free to roam around. Thanks for stopping by. ^_^

HATING HOSTEL EVEN MORE NOW..

2010-09-21T20:14:00.008+08:00

People who lived apart from home must know this by now.. we miss the fun stuffs that happen at home while we're away. dontchu think so. for me, I hate missing out from a great food! If I knew, i'll be so pissed! Today's case, Im thanking Allah for able-ing me to have this glorious food before I move to hostel this sunday :)

you people must be wondering.. what? raw mushroom??

what so special about that?? well.. it is special.. If...

we make Shabu-shabu out of it :)

yeah~~ I love tofu the most!!

Lea taking out her noodle.

Babah scooping the daun curry out.

I my me mine :) Itadakimasssseeee!

PEANUTS & CORNS :)

2010-09-20T19:54:00.000+08:00

I love visiting the farm.. especially when suprising improvements were made. I cant believe the mini rest-hut almost finish sudah. i love the interior.. hope I hope ianya bejamban. i would love to stay bemalam menunggu durian disana.. bedangan lah of course~ :) wudnt want to stay alone.. scaweeee~

the resthut masih dalam pembikinan. inda lah fully siap. it is simple and nice and its located bersebalahan dengan storeroom. babah told me that the hut sepatutnya located di atas bukit so we can see everything from up there.. tapinya.. diatas bukit tu ada betanam durian... so nda jadi.

like it simple :) what dya think?

babah chitchatting with a passerby.

okay now. lets go to the farm part.

there's a pathway made by karno (our farmer/gardener). he's very good in making all this. our handy man, that's what i called him. he's very hardworking and you can even see lots and lotsa progress. previously ive shown you the kosongness of our kabun.. but see now..

that's my babah with karno.

this people.. is peanut. kacang tanah. see ia bebunga sudah? the kuning2 damit arah 1st photo on the left. the kacang will grow soon :) cant wait to harvest!! :D see the wide view. aint it awesome?! the first harvest from our kabun was timun. now, finish udah :)

this is what I love. its sweetcorn. jagung manis :) its very nice and juicy. serious. im so happy that our kabun had produced good stuffs. we even sell it di Tamu. Alhamdulillah, Im so happy we have Karno helping us with all this.

wider view. batas yg baru bebuat dgn ratanya oleh c karno dibawah atu plan nya untuk ditanam lada and tarung :) I loovveeeee tarung!! :D yyyuummm!! the scenery dari atas bukit are breathe-taking. and the angin.. so nice!

the weather mcm inda suka ja aku dtg ke kabun... hmph.

its raining heavily when we arrived at home.

SHOPPIN' WITH NANCE & ALESHA

2010-09-19T06:17:00.000+08:00

I was having my chillin' sunday mornin' at home when Nance decide to shoppin' few stuffs for making her own shepherd pie and home-steamboating.. she had to drag me to Bandar jua.. *sigh* I have to come as I also have stuffs to buy for mii kari as requested by some pals for mini openhouse nanti.. we brought Alesha along.. Giant is the cheapest place that I cud think of..

Alesha main takan2..

little vain..

she now always do the smOochie pose

Dunno where she got that pose from.. *winku*

Small Nance, Big Nance

went for dimsum and chicken rice. I was starving. shopping does make you hungry. still got some barang to bali lagi.. its not complete yet, will buy tomorrow. Nance want me to accompany her to Clinic jua.

chiiikiinnn raisss~

I love seaweed roll ;)

P/s: Thanks Mimi Najwa, John Wo, S Na Hs, HiksQyum, Jojo & Izzati for wanting me to come with you guys to C Beib's house. It was fun. Nice marble cheesecake. and Thanks Kebret love for inviting me to your lovely open house, goes to you too Lihen :) got no pictures on that, was too busy makan :D

8 DAYS OF RAYA-SHORTS!!

2010-09-17T10:14:00.003+08:00

before I start story-telling on my totally boring raya days..

let me do a shoutout to all of you...

UII KAMU.. END SEMESTER DISSERTATIONKU SIAP UIII!!!! *saja show-off* :D

yeahihiheeee :D WoOhOo!!

Alhamdulillahi Rabbil Alamiiiinnnnn :D

Im so freakin happy!! My deepest gratitude and big BIG Thank You to sir Haji Julaini for giving your all in finishing my dissert. ive been bothering you too much, nagging and whining and annoyed you yet you didnt get mad at me, Im so grateful to be under your supervision. Allah bless you dear sir and your family as well. May Allah be with you. My prayer, my hope, my wish.. is TO NOT REDO MY DISSERTATION LAGI. Amin, amin, amin.. mudahan my titik peluh are beautifully done. and bring satisfaction to all. I dont want to meet those excruciating moment again. hihihiii..

this prayer also goes to the whole 22nd DIN loviess.. may luck be on us. Amin. may we never redo it again. Amin. hey you guys.. WE'VE DONE IT!! YATTTAAAA!! :D P/s: Thank you to those who put in my name into your acknowledgement. Its an honor really. Thank you.

last time we got an open house.. very crowded and ramai, hence im not inviting any of my friends. god.. the killer-crowds.. damn.. the cheesecakes are everyone's love! people love the thick cheese :) Thanks for coming people~

and oh just now I went to 4 houses for raya and 3 of them having rumah terbuka. damn im so freakin full and bloated like very berabisly, got myself disfigured. its like i can feel udah my pipi betamu. you cant even see my nose lagi coz it got fully covered by my two extremely stuffed cheek. seriously, there is NO EFFING WAY i will be able to shed this killer-kilos away! bleurgh!! IM FFFAAAATTTTTTTTTT!!! UWAAAAAA!! think ive just realized that?? ahahahahaaaaa :D my ass-lah~

i always have my schedule full. i dont have much time for a meet-and-greet thingy. some are already filled up by my college friends. hanging out and stuffs. now that i dont have my dissert goin on, i have lotsa freetime, WHICH already got booked by my friends so yeah, its not easy to get me in your free schedule, im not being baie sombong but iatah wah. aku inda free berabis wah. so when I got a free access, a day reserve for you.. the last thing i need is... A CANCELLATION. I hate that. i really hate that. its like being rejected. I hate that. I REALLY HATE THAT. but.. I dont need long to find a fun-replacement though. its irreplaceable. Inda batah ku cari ganti untuk ku enjoy.. but when you're in my list.. that's mean you are one of the specials. backing off is sooooo.. batah for me to forgive. apologies is useless. so ah.. awu I got a cancellation masariatu. and I had a lot of open offer (raya convoy, lunchout for ambuyat) but always.. my choice is always.. my kerbo :)

we go koryo and nanny McPhee that day. It was a fantastic day, she cheered me up and we did a lot of stupid lame jokes which we laugh bodohly which I love.. ahahahaaaa :D idiots! chindon! Ive been watching movies (new and old one) lately. here's some list and ratings and a lil' bit of comments (some have spoiler, so beware! :D):

1. twilight eclipse (7/10)

oh jacob darling.. you're body is a wonderland and yeah, you are WAY much HOTTER than that cullen. how I wish you're not '92 *wink* :)

2. resident evil afterlife (6/10)

i love milla jovovich. but losing powers? its not aproper alice anymore. I still cant believe how she manage to survive as a human. she shud be dead by now. storyline: expectable -- boring. but its still an A-okay movie :)

3. Nanny McPhee & the Big Bang (6/10)

Its just a so-so movie. something to buang your boredom. nda jua siuk sgt, the story seems fast and nanny mcphee seems to lost her mysteriousness. hmph. i still like the first one better.

4. Frozen (3/10)

fark. this is boring. expectable. boring plot. typical ending. typical disaster. eurgh. dissapointed.

5. Abandoned (7/10)

I would be giving 8 if the actress was not brittany murphy. I dont like her. the story plot was nice. its kinda like.. a remake of flightplan or even.. gothika.. something like that. expectable (for me) yet there's a nice ending there.

6. everybody's fine (9.5/10)

A very, very good family story. for someone who doesnt treasure family bond, then dont watch this. i find this movie somewhat meaningful. i love the actors in it. I recommend to watch this.

7. In my sleep (9/10)

yauuuzzzaaa!! man, the main actors is so daym HOT!!! gosh i really love seeing him waking up in a cemetery with wearing only short tights!! and I pray and pray and hoping that it is a see-thru!! gaaahhh!!! awesome!!

8. blue seduction (8/10)

nice one. nice.. very sensual.. very intriguing.. kinda slow so feel free to fast-forward. nice story plot. good funny ending. dont like the ctor tho. but its okay :)

9. the curse of Muoi (9.5/10)

I love horror. so nda heran if I love this so much. the antu was okay. I may not teriak on stuffs but im sure my friends will. very nice stoy plot tho for me its predictable. I love revenge stuffs. satisfying ending. really love seeing bad people suffer.

got story. i was going convoy raya with my pals yesterday when a car almost got me into accident. he was driving out of a junction without observing the road is clear or not. My way is straight. I go straight, and that guy shud stop before coming out! he didnt! almost.. almost.. haish!! I was in no mood kan marah, really. I got stopped by the side stable, he stopped quite far from my car but hovering around to see if we're okay. Ive checked all my friends in the car. they're all okay. Alhamdulillah. then i wave away indocating "move now, before i change my mind. go away now." they go away and im back to my joyous mood and go beraya. nda pa~ maap zahir batin :) so kami beraya arah rumah huda and noor amanina. food was glorious! :)

Salam Aidilfitri, Salam Eid Mubarak All :)

Pines VS Sushi King

2010-09-07T04:29:00.000+08:00

Guu morning! :) (at this moment: its 4.44am) Im post-sahur? no, Im not fasting today, I woke up just to search for my camera batteries charger... and I cant close my eyes again. pfft. so anyway, im updating. Hey, what's up there? Its RIPAS hospital in early morning. its very cold and rainy too. It was my first time working Night Duty in a ward at ripas. once in Accident and Emergency KB. It was fun. I can eat freely! :D yeah!! ahahahahaaaa :D the kiddos doesnt cause me too much trouble at night, the sleep quite well. cries at time tho :|

Puasa = Foods, foods and more foods!!

Dontcha think? I think so too.

so much for dieting. blergh. I have a lot of sungkai invitations which Im unable to attend some of it. Sadly, My clinical schedule and my thesis have consumed most of my precious time. I hope I can feel the raya mode but I dont think so.. my heads bnyk masalah lagi. gosh, I shud stop whining. Its annoying berabis sangat2. so yeah, 3 days ago.. I went to The Pines in Gadong with Lea and Shirley. Its a korean + japanese restaurant. the korean part was.. hmm.. Okay. Im loving ramyeon (as my poeba soulmate oh-chan loves it too) but its too.. bnyk air lah.. mee nya sdikit. the japanese part.. sucks and very costly. I highly recommend you to just go to excapade if you craved for nihon foods.

Shirley... got probs with uncooked foods. She didnt know that most of nihon foods are.. raw. especially the salmon. except if ia ada buat grilled cheese salmon or whatever lah kan.. she didnt eat that much jadinya.. hmph. rugi.

fatties on the go

awu. rambutku macam singa..

This is Bibimbap (correct me if Im wrong) basically its a mixed rice consisting of namul (sautes and seasoned veggies) and gochujang (chilli pepper paste) can be replaced by soy bean paste too. I give 5/5 for the bibimbap here. Its nice. while lea mixing the rice.. tofu stew +mushrooms + beef arrived...

I really recommend you this. Its VERY nice.

lea finishing up mixing the bibimbap.

Yeah! My HUGE bowl ramyeon arrived!! If Ochasan is a ramen-prince, I shall be the princess :D Ggggaaaahhhhh!!! *Blushed* Its quite bland actually.. unfortunately... hmph..

yyuummm! :D

the next morning.. we when to Miri. It was a food fiesta. I dont think Mirians puasa.. Its like.. ada yang betudung2 makan di dlmnya.. its quite weird jua to see the kadai makan atu smua buka.. so me and my sister go rampage. we went for Pizzas and spaghetti and penne at Pizza hut then at Cook and Chilli for roasted duck (Do NOT FALL for the tasty pictures, the foods sucks), Bunch of doughnuts at Donuts and Coffee and of course, the sussshhhiiiii :D It was.. okay but not satisfying. Excapade still tops the list, followed by Misato :)

weirdly. the unagi are very meaty :)

relaxing with lotsa galaxies (mags)

bbong! and peace :)

2010-09-01T05:08:00.000+08:00

08:44am

Good morning :D Am now at my ward. Im working A.M shift alone (Im the only student). I didnt realize that posa nda lama lagi abis. no wonder my ward so meriah with all this wonderful and eye-catching decorations. Its a beauty :) see here.

10:09am

I cant sit. I refuse to sit. I feel very tense. At this moment, I dont know what to say. Its my fault, Ive done a very bad practice. no, nothing fatal. dont worry. no adverse reaction. no harm to my patient of course. Its just my practice, my ways of doing stuffs have lacked a LOT of things. I take full responsibility to it and admit its my own carelessness but im impressed and thankful, very.. very grateful to two staff nurses Dk Salwana and Ernie for backing me up and take the blame. No I wont let such thing happen. I am thankful on how protective they are, i feel blessed for having such a kind staff nurse supervising me and helping me thru the stressful clinical setting. Thank you, Thank you.

11:45am

Ive reflect on my clinical skills and take note. staff nurse giving me opportunity to try again. and I did. not wonderfully though. but still I didnt forget the major part of the process. yeay! *mood elevation* hihiii..

12:20pm

Intensive mengumpat with Elza in progress dalam bus. man, that feels so good. I miss the piranas :) babah pick me up at hostel to balik rumah. I said I want to move in balik hostel so i can ngumpat abis2an lagi with durg elza.. hihihiii. he refuse to let me tidur hostel. babah sunyi katanya. yeah, me too. i feel lifeless banarnya dihostel but for the sake of nda-mengabiskan-minyak-hari2-ke-bandar kan.. *sigh*

01:13pm

yeah. happy that babah bought me eggplant! I love eggplant! :) pakai sungkai bisai tu. Im home.. tired and burnout. I was supposed to do my dissertation correction but instead, I stared blankly at Nance (my kaka) managing her purse organsiers. and farted at her twice. buang boring. I wonder why my kaka getting more idiot lately.. she loves to give people 'payuuuuuu'. its eff you. pretty lame right? but we laughed our heart out over it. pheit macam apa.. hahahaaa the dumb sisters! paaayyyuuuuuuu!! Its like annoying orange's wassssaaaabbi!

02:06pm

I cant feel my thighs and my lamak jubu. its like very numb and when I sat on it, it hurts like crazy! knapa kan tu ah? Is sit becoz of I stand too long masa clinical period tu ka? yeah I guess so. rasanya macam kalau ko terbump on something hard and the phantom from the hit masih terasa sampai bila2, like what the hell.. knapa kan ia sakit atu.. nda ku paham eh.

02:31pm

sleeping beauty *aura-aura kemanithan di sini* :D

4:27pm

Im bored. Im sitting in my babah's office doing nothing. anywayyyy.. Tomorrow will be my second night duty over my 3 years nursing training. Im actually look forward to it as well.. you know, im very fond of horrorific experience. teheheeee.. rumours has it that my ward where i am allocated now is the hauntiest (is that even a word? the most haunted) ward ever! *eerie feeling* woOoOoo :D *exciteeee* heheheheeeeee..

even the staffs approved it. the children in the wards always cried seeing it. the voices heard at night. waahh.. still look forward to it! :)

4:38pm

permission to go balik rumah akong tonight.... GRANTED! yeah :D

5:22pm

farted at my babah. bbong!! *my favs* teheheheeeee~

9:30pm

play with Nance's wig :D

DONE! :D

my long annoying ramadhan blabbering

2010-08-31T04:56:00.000+08:00

Dear blog.

I feel like talking. Ah well… typing. I am now working in a paediatric ward in RIPAS. Never thought I would be placed there. Sorry to say, I hate kids. I really do. They bother me much. It is really a challenge for me placed here. Plus, being management student has a lot to do too. People been asking, why RIPAS? Why not Tutong? More closer jua tu.. hmph.. well, I thought I would be better here in RIPAS, more experience, more challenges but really I didn’t expect THIS ward though. I was hoping for Neurosurgical ward; as I really did my best there previously and expected to be sent there again but unfortunately I wasn’t. pfft. Malas la kan cakap.

We have mentor in the ward. Ward mentor is the qualified nurse who supervise and commented anything of your skills and our aim is to meet her criteria of being a good future nurse manager/incharge. So, how’s my mentor? I dislike her. Yeah. Well, I don’t hate or despise her. Its just she seems to concentrate more on this guyfriend of mine who previously worked there. She’s kinda bias and obviously, favoritism. She’s a good teacher but rarely supervise my work, its always on my guyfriend, my guyfriend, my guyfriend. I fly solo there. As if I can do almost anything without supervision, man im suck lah!

Sorry you guys must hate me know for whining and talking about nonsense too much. Its just Im under a very, VERY lot of stress now. My friends are of no good (sorry). They don’t even ask how I doing lately and stuffs. THEY EXPECT ME TO ASK FIRST, as if im not busy and as if I got all the time in my life. Like what the hell. Waiting for my invitation to sungkai luar and hang out mcm urg cool and expect me to joke and fool around so they can laugh and enjoy while I have to come out with something funny so the environment wudnt be so blleeaahhhh. Urgh. Aku malas. Aku malas! Huh. So much for a friend.

Ah awu. I hate morning shifts. It always makes me grumpy. And my urine feels hot coz I have to bangun twice masa sahur and sleep for another hour and bangun lagi, so im prone to fever bangun balik2 cmatu. Hence, the hot urine. Disgusting? So be it.

Lets talk dissertation/thesis. How was mine? Still in progress. Correction saja. Im not saying im fully satisfied with it. But I say, its good. I hope I can do a lot better. Hope I can finish it well. Amin.

What else I did these days ah.. hmph.. Oh, Ive just finished watching Oh My Lady. It was okay, I forwarded it too much, that’s why Im able to finished the whole drama in two days. The lead actor and actress are not my favs. but yeah, do watch it I you have free time. Its good.

What else.. hhhmm~ hhhmmmpphh~ *blank* oh. Im tired of driving. Then uh.. a good friend gave me her hostel room so I can stay there for the next 6 weeks of clinical. So I wont be driving from tutong to Bandar balik2.

Hey. I feel like be cerita. Lets do story telling.

1. Panas.

One night aku tidur. Skali, ekon rusak. Ada bunyi tek-tek-tek cmatu lah. Macam bunyi urg lastik2 cmatu lah. Tek-tek-tek. Then aku message my kaka dibawah. Suruh bawa naik kipas. So at least rusak2 pun ekon ah, since ia berangin campur gi dengan angin kipas.. ada lah rasa sajuknya tu. Kaka saya pun naik bawa kipas. Then ia tutup ekon katanya tutup skajap so krg buka balik biar sajuk smula. So aku tetido. Then aku tebangun.. kima panas berabis. Aku perhatikan… chit, sampah. Ekon masih betutup. Liat jam pukul 3 kan sahur. Bangkai. Apatah gunanya mun kan dibuka ni mun merasa Cuma skajap (sal aku kraja morning shift, pukul 5 pksa bangun lagi) useless jua tu. Plan kan be ekon + kipas, jadi kipas tah nganya pulang niup2 sepoi2 di ujung2 kaki. Hampeh. Kakaku pun tetido. Lupa ya buka balik ekon ah. Hish!!

2. Kan menyanyi jua ku ni

Satu patang aku chillin dalam bilik ketombe (my true friend – bukan nama sebenar) sambil dangar lagu2 korea. Then ia nangis pasal boiiprengnya triak2 arah hanpon marahkan ia. So aku marah. Aku nda suka kawan aku menangis. Pasal.. bising. And annoying. Payah ku dgr lagu korea. So aku pun ambik tu tepon. Aku tepon tu jantan (pkai tepon sii ketombe, kedit ku 0.00) then aku triak balik tanpa segan silu and marah and mengusut pasal payah kan menyanyi lagu korea then mbari nasihat ramadhan cmatu lah. Then jantan tu tekajut and minta maap dgn seikhlasnya. Aku nda terima maap tu, bkn aku yg nangis. Hmph. Dah atu ja.

So point of the story… actuallynya nada. hihihiiii Thanks for membaca jeritan batinku kamu ah.. :) aku keboringan. Aku kusut. Aku lonely. Aku mau jumpa ketombe and nangis. Aku nada kawan banar. Makes me sad to think people come to me Cuma untuk ketawa. Aku nda perlu ketawa ka jua? *sigh* huuuh.. kesian jua aku ni eh. Eh aku pernah tu kana message malam2 berbunyi cemani “eh pakirah mana ko? Ada ko dibilik? Aku boring. Make me laugh eh. Aku ke sana awal ni.” Like, what the hell. Malam2.. aku tidor lah talur… ko expect me to be what.. 24hours joke-machine ka? Mati choii.. nda begarak cergas tu otak ku di mlm buta ah..

Then kan, then kan.. ada lagi yang punya lah batah mendiamkan diri.. and ada jua lagi yang batah nda hangout sama-sama, then tiba2 out of nowhere ada message… pinjam duit. Gila wah.. sejak bila wah aku ni beduit.. ya rabbi. Aku bnr2 inda suka using friends untuk tempatmu bergantung hidup. You got family and relatives, so does your friends.. tolong deyh preserve bah the good value of ur friendship atu. Jangan di spoil. Bida wah.

See.. aku ada baaaannnyyyaaakkk jenis “kawan”.

Ada kawan yg suruh aku jadi urg mbuat ia ktawa. Ada kwn yg hope aku jadi atm machinenya. Ada kawan yg took advantage for the sake of looks cool and untuk hangout saja. Ada kawan yg chipsmore version 1 (susah timbul ya. Sanang lasap ya) and chipsmore version 2 (batah nda timbul. Nada kabar. Mau2 aku jua yg tnya dulu then ada tah tu I miss you.) sampah. Rubbish. Apa ka lagi bahasa lain.

So, as a conclusion. I miss ketombe. And lee hyori. And my imaginary boiiprengs. And all my imaginary pets and bestprengs. And imaginary fans. Nasib ku sadar its all imaginary. Schizophrenic much? Blergh.

p/s: aku dulu ada buat ‘limbang, we in love’ lawa ceritanya. Ntah mana ka ya ilang. Mun kamu tejumpa bagi ku ah. dipublish bisai tu :)

geringhit!

Shorts! :)

2010-08-01T05:39:00.006+08:00

Im lazy. noted. Im a bummer. noted. hence, the lack update! ihihihiiiii~ I am now twitterly active (sadang).. hmph.. hmmpmmhh.. so, SHORTS! :) for the past four days Ive been going here and there. tiring myself and tend to always sleep deprived (pasalnya bangun terlampaw awal just to download stuffs) and still, my dissert is alum tegarak.. pheit. hampeh aku ni. but Im making a move towards it. Im starting to jangkau it yesterday, which Im happy but daym, I have to help my Babah distribute kurma, so less time on my tasks.

three days ago:

I'm a blood donor. Again :)

photo by khaliq :)

more blood donation day photos

HERE and HERE

(just click on the 'HERE')

credits to the loviesss: Juan & Khaliq.

two days ago (morning till afternoon):

out with ajriin.

We went to kadai kominis for korean movies and doramasss.. he bought oh! my lady. then we went to Dimsum for brunch. then found some gelato. then bridex hall for the consumer fair. Thought tiring, it was fun! :) will look forward for another meeting ^_^

'around the world in 60 minutes' :)

My London arrival :)

more outing photos HERE

(just click on the 'HERE')

two days ago (afternoon):

Tahlil & Doa Arwah @ Babu.

Khal, a college-mate :)

four days ago:

visiting the kabun.

the thing that I love the most of a kabun is the fresh air uphill. the angin tiup2 was so nice. I always want to naik atas and breathe. but somehow.. bau manure attack~ hihihiiii~ namanya jua kabun buah.. mun kabun bunga, hmmm~ bisai tu~ ^_^

batas udah siap oleh karno. batang2 kayu yang bediri megah tu untuk timun2 menjalar and patola and tarung and apasaja.. hmm. catu lah.

two days ago (morning):

Shirley's first deraibing lesson.

Brought her round2 kwsn rumahnya. she freaked out a lot. stopped when a car approached. rearview and side mirror are useless to her. urgh. so dead. Shirley, now you know how it feels~ huahuahuaaaaa :D

yesterday:

lotsa stuffs.

let me just cakap memanjang without any pictures. morning, aku ke hospital sama babah ambil darah, his monthly check up lah tu. then to his office ambil surat-suratan. then breakfast. then to a very old friend of mine, Adinin punya rumah. Babah cant make it tomorrow, so we went for ramah mesra thingy. and I talked a lot dgn Adinin, his kaka and mama. very friendly lah the family :) so then gaji pencen for the elderlies were released. I have to help my babah with the kurma while he handled the money. When nada urg ambil kurma, I worked on my dissert here and there. got some bit and pieces of info noted, its good :)

this.. blocked the jalan.

see. wayar letrik sangkut arah the... thing.

bodoh.

out! :)

Play @ Wasai Mentiri

2010-07-25T05:59:00.000+08:00

Hai ^_^ I wont talk much.

credits to Khaliq :)

Im absent and did nothing useful

2010-07-19T05:33:00.002+08:00

My problems when Im not attending the college this morning:
1. my usual addiction --subuh downloading.
2. not coming out of the room (due to 1)
3. forgot to brush my teeth
4. long messy hair and dont know what to do with it.
5. untouch dissertation
6. very little water received and its muddy *ada pembaikian kali*
7. car broke down, helped babah to sorong kereta.
8. Its 12 then download mudah menyangkut (getting mad)
9. termakan bnyk petai and mulut will bebau and so my kantut and pee :\
10. black out from 4pm to 9pm.
11. nyamuk attack.
12. craving sutung tutuk and longan.

Gaahhh.. see.. nothing useful. Im not going to school yet Im bored at home too. sometimes it makes me think, what is the purpose of my life? I cant even think of any, really. I dream of being free, meaning no commitment to life, love, careers blahblablah.. but come to think of it, living freely can be pointless too.. haiyoh.. how ah.. tunggu saja lah for some signs. hmph :|

tadi aku..

paint my nails..

main make-up Nance.

see, Im bored.

anyway.. without realizing it, Ive just did tho.. people around me keeps on gettin' involved into a more serious relationship (engaged, marriage) wow.. feels like.. Im getting old.. anyway.. I would like to congratulate this wonderful people below.. whom had found their soulmate and ready to be someone's else life.

Our Kameng (Will post her wedding photos nanti lagi)

Izzati

Lily Maii :)

Norrimah @ Umairah Batrisyia

May Allah blessed their engagement and marriage :) Amin.

THE REASON OF MY HIATUS-NESSITY

2010-07-18T14:24:00.006+08:00

Simply saying...

Im Lazy :|

Gosh, iVE BEEN ABSENT FROM BLOGGING FOR TOO LONG NOW... erkh! and why the hell am I typing with caps lock on?!! argh what the heck.. I hate retyping, so yeah!! Im using caps cause Im so angry and mad!! *being unreasonable* ahahahaaaa :D Im blabbering right now.. you know why? becoz, Im so full of... malasness and on a NO-Life mode.. ahahahaaaaa :D

Its my first time feeling so malas to the max, Ive weight extra 10 kilos or so.. (now you can play hide and seek with my neck and will never find it *coz of the quadriple chin im having* Ddeng! --lame jokes coming thru~~~) ahahahahaaaa :D Ive spent too much on sleeping, and Lea's been bickering about how I'm being nation's MC (Yoo Jaesuk Oppa) apprentice by talking non-stop and never quiet... ggaaahhh.. life.. ooohh life is a curious thing yeah~ *im singing amy grant's curious thing out of sudden* like.. mengapa eyh aku ah? *sigh*

I also hate when I start to feel like blogging then my finjjjeerrrsss suddenly clicks on twitter and enter and then I ended up spent thousand hours reading news @tweetslb and laugh at stupid scandalous hot topics e.g disfigured faces after plastic surgeries, or dogs with no bulu and so and so.. *sigh* and jua kan.. I hate typing too much now as It ruins my nail polish.. cuba yuu guys liat.. kesian kan meee.. *put mua-sedih-kan-mati-and-mbari-ditampar here pliss*

kalernya blue-green lah. bukan yellow.

and one more thing.. my sisters and I have lotsa USB cables (nda plg ku kan menjual ni).. for headphones.. headset for cells.. for camera.. for anywhatsoever and I hate to search the USB cable for my LG tu put pictures in here. frustrating when I cant find it. leaves me guling2, meraung in despair *being absolute inappropriately dramatic* and eventually tidur lagi~ life.. ooh life is a curious thing yeah~ *nyanyi lagi~*

see? see?? bad cables! bad!

and here! look down here!

Dissert!! Dissertation is the last task that I shud finish to complete my 3 & a half year nursing course. I must get on it immediately but I always.. ALWAYS tetidur!! I can stop my eyes from shutting *as I always woke up at dawn just to download variety shows* pherkh!! no, NO.. please dont ask me to change my sleeping pattern, I cant live without laughing to the PC screen for a day. pliss dont... *watery but cute adorable eyes*

and hey... Im back to college oredy..

After the long heavenly holidays of mine.. *and spending 24hours sitting infront of the PC watching Family Outing continuously and didnt work on the dissert* I am now back to civilization and starting on a new chapter of my life. This is the last semester Im having. Im going to graduate next year ---- Im wishing for a better, brighter results *distinction Ya Allah..*, Hope I do my management year very, VERY well, Hope I excels my nursing practice, Hope I wont be scared and get on the staffs' nurses nerves, Hope Im learning well and I'll be the best nurse Incharge during the clinical attachment (Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.. 3000x).

and oh.. Im changing seats now. I took the very front and sit by zeymah and pou and Qamar too :). whom Ive been clinical attached with (never with Qamar tho.. have I?). I went to Operating Theatre with Zeymah and went to Accident & Emergency with Pou (even shares room in KB hostel). So yeah, I have better concentrations. bad thing is.. I dozes off too easily. daym, I regret waking up too early, 2/3 am causing me baggy eyes and forming dark circles.

My classmates, Naina and Qamar talked about the plants that Ive grow.. they said I put my FB status mostly about it.. Did I? Really didn't remember about that but actually, I didn't tanam or grow anything in the past few weeks.. but my family have a gardener now, Name's Kharno. He's been taking care of my baby labu at kabun and sayur kacang and jagung and tomato and timun and lada and nangka and tarap and blablablaaa.. he's really hardworking :) here. let me show you my kabun ^_^

Done :) till next time. bye now~

ALHAMDULILLAH REZEKI ^^

2010-07-12T03:49:00.000+08:00

Before I start to thank on the glorious foods. let start with Thanking my junior loviess (you know who you are) for giving me those souveniers from Beijing and Singapore tho I actually demanded it ^^ really, thank you. will one day repay ;) I really love the panda keychain as it produces sounds 'i love you' and lights. The blue butterfly keychain are so shining!! *panchak-panchak nunii busho!* I like the colour :) and I got a 'brick' of great wall beijing! harharrr.. its actually a magnet for refrigerators. Its nice to have these as Im not sure I'll be able to go there myself :) Thank you really adik2ku ^^

I am known for the grill hantu and lamak-eater and I really love doing BBQ! I like to salai thingy.. just for fun. especially kambenk! sluurrrpp! ^^

sausages, tungking, chic's thigh, chic's drumstick, chic's wings and lamb.

tungking~

kambenk~

cheese sausages~

tungking close-up~

chic's wings and kambenk marinated in wraps..

yummm~

Itadakimasssuuuuu~ ^^

Holiday Shorts and Ended.

2010-07-11T07:24:00.007+08:00

Hmph. I finally able to update my blog. but this will contain a LOOOOTTTTTTTT of wordings saja as I havent taken much photos lately. So, holidays.. I spent most of my time.. downloading. at home. tepuruk memanjang dapan komputer and just... download. What did I download?? ^_^ This. jFAMILY OUTING. I really love this korean variety shows and I really love Lee Hyori. She's one of my fav. and no, I will not share the downloaded videos with anyone (even if you beg me) no, I wont. download it by yourself, thank you~

My Fav hyori is in the middle ^_^

and my stupid monitor, It had to smashed couple of times (to the walls) to uncolored it. yes, my screen color is purple. Imagine watching my favourit lee hyori in purple! argh, so devastating!see? pfft!

With all the downloads and stuffs that keeps me fully occupy during the holidays, I regretly, seriously.. Im regretting that I did not touch my dissertation even once. Its very disappointing and I realized that but I keep on ignoring and keep on drooling on Family Outing. Haish!! *in despair* nothing I can do.

and, i got my balasan sudah as.. last night.. my dissertation articles got soaked up in water from the airconditioner. I felt really heavy. I can feel stabbing on my chest. My sister going frantic about the aircond but seems to ignore the hurts that I felt and its very irritating. Im quite a compose person, so what i do its just think and dont panic. and dont get mad as it may not solve anything an brings lotsa problems instead.

breathing deeply really helps a lot. and sleep. just hoping for a better tomorrow. but yeah, the next morning, I check on the articles that I dried up and Thanks Allah its still readable. only one paper was unsaveable. Its okay, I guess. hmph.

anyway, during holidays, I join my three cousins, Richard (Echad), Ronnie (Eboii) and Rohzeinee (Ojii) to make a band just for fun. It seems that the family heard about it and wanted us to perform on Jimmy's Birthday party. so yeah, we did. last night, I performed 7 songs in total. It was lively and it seems that everyone loves it despite my true ugly voice. ah well..

the three ugleeesss ^_^

and uh, a friend of mine, Helen embraces Islam during the holiday. rename herself: Nur Helena Adelia. nice. she stole my future daughter's name. Adelia.

see me? ^_^

happy to be there :)

people have been asking me? Khira/Lydia/Lily, nda ko drive ka? yes I do.. actually. Im not that scared to go anywhere. Its just.. aku malas. I need to jaga my downloads ^_^ hmm.. I went to antar my Granpapa to hospital I think 4 times or so. and my specialties is shopping alone.

full passenger seat ^_^

I went to Gadong, Muara, Giant Rimba, Jangsak -- everywhere by myself and sometimes with company, Aman and Ceca. I rarely go out with people as I hate driving with people around me, they get panic, and so I'll be. so yeah, I do drive ^_^

what else.. oh! I did not do any farming anymore.. as I have amah laki2 sudah. name's Kharno. he's actually the husband of my amah bini2, Atin. he's incharge of the kabun now. So, I leave all the baby labu in his trusting and capable hands. and Alhamdulillah, i dont need to spent long hours under the scorching heat.

oh yeah, henna is a must on boring days ^_^

and of course, everyone knows this. Im effing pigging out. Im fat. plump. 24/7 bloated. there. college tomorrow.. Can I skip? ^_^ One day saja maaa.. oke apa? huehuehueeeeee~

UPLOADER SUCKS

2010-07-05T21:32:00.003+08:00

I was about to update a "Holiday shorts" post but it seems that i have problems with my uploader and unable to put up photos.. so erm, I'll be sure to update by tomorrow. but Im thinking to close this blog (just abandon it) as I am now really loving tweetiessss not the corn snacks but that's what I called the twitter. I really like it and its simple ^^ so erm , I'll think about it again. but I dont think I have the courage to tutup another blog. I love blogging as much as I love tweeting :) c ya tmrow. good night~

A SPECIAL DAY FOR HIM

2010-06-20T18:31:00.002+08:00

Holidays. I go crazy. There's lotsa things to do, but left undone. I tend to do other useless stuffs. Ive been staying at home and only goes to my Grandpa's house. You drive? yeah, alone. I prefer go here and there by myself rather than being with other alive creatures ^_^

Jamming with cousins? Hanging out with friends? Why not? Hmph. Holidays.. I prefer to stay at home and download stuffs. Im a home person. I dont go out that much. Im a bummer.

and hey, Ive watched Blood Diamond just now. and from the beginning till end I cant stop crying. Im a very-very sensitive person too, y'know that? ^_^ Cerita Lama jua tuuu.. I know, Im tracing back times.. that's what holidays are for.. huehuehueeeee~

anyway.. we're not here to blab nonsense are we? guess were not becoz why? TODAY IS A VERY SPECIAL DAYS FOR ALL DADS, FATHERS, BABAH, BAPA, AYAH, ABHUJI, OTOSAN, APPA, What else... apa-apa lah! Its Father's day! yayyy!!!

and Im making somfink for my babah terchinta. I always come up with something last minute so this doesn't turn up very well but I love it (apakan..) harharharrrr~

Ugly Craps Eii?

Then it beautifies..

Made this for my babah

bought cake too ^_^

TWO Babahs on their special day

Alesha eager to blow the candles..

Just for him

simple present and cake..

says it all..

No words can describe how much I love my father. He's the only Man that i trust and no other. He makes my life worth living and Im thankful to Allah for making me as his daughter even though Im not that great. Ya Allah, Im praying for My Babah long life, the best that Allah can ever give and his well-being. I love him. berabisly.

ALESHA's OUT & SMOOCHESSS~

2010-06-14T16:55:00.001+08:00

Jajjang!! hehee~ Hai.

This morning, me and Chacha (Alesha) were bored so when Babah wanted to go to the town ,we willingly followed him ^_^ Chacha was more than excited to see new, colourful stuffs... well, so am I though. so, we tried this typical smash-and-nothing-fun game by the central mall sidewalks.

and Chacha hit NONE.

my $1.50 what a waste..

*sigh* Chacha sucks at this~ hmm.

so anyway.. Ive promised Hanni to make our photos neoprint style. her wish is my command, as I love something that makes me busy during the holidays. see the pic below..

Lame Brain Paradise (1st pic).. yeah~ ^_^

and oh, I love smoochie (If you noticed) hahahaaa~ so I decided to do collections of smoochie photos. Im planning to make lotsa these. Man, I should start a campaign.

Can you do it with me?

Chacha did ^_^

FOODS: FAMILY LOVE~

2010-06-13T05:09:00.000+08:00

Food.. is what keeps me alive... ahahaaa *curi line from Kim Yeo Hee's Music* kekekekk.. anyway.. I love foods, my family love foods too. so we went to Flavours this afternoon arnd at 3. before that I would like to oppose my babah punya cakap which is.. "Makan tah ko Lii.. Babah batah dah idup dari ko, bnyk dah yg babah pernah makan.." uhuhh.. right. look at me.. "Makan tah Babah bah.. Aku batah dah gemuk (80+kilo more than you)... bnyk dah ku makan dari babah~" ^_^ harharharrr I eat more than you did lah babah..

here are some photos of me, Nance, Aj, Lea, Aidan, Adam and Alesha... and FOODS.. at Flavours. It was quiet at that time. the staffs we're setting this huge canvas for World Cup special ^_^

Aj, Alesha & Nance.

Slluurrppp! 50% off drinks if you get a $6-up foods.

food glorious food~

helping Adam with his foods..

forgot what Nance's order..

vanilla, wheatgrass, oh oreo~

fried tanghoon~

beef baga!!

Lea kan buat iklan ka apa tu..

licin woo the piringsss!!

A question (Yen Lanjiku will know the answer for this). What's best to do after our belly is full berabis?? hm? anyone?... hahahaa KARAOKE! hikhikhikssss..

better man by Robbie William.

We stopped by at Louis' place.
just to see a huge fish.

Alesha was frightened with banana fritters on her hands..

humongous...

almost huge fishes..

done! ^_^ Riida ailobyuu poeba~

LAST DAY @ COLLEGE: HENNA PARTIES ^_^

2010-06-12T09:17:00.001+08:00

Before I start with my henna, let me start with my tudong first. I hate my tudong today, Its too licin that it keeps sliding down and covered half of my face. and I seek Domi for help and turned out she's having fun fooling around making my face looks rounder than ever! aigoo yaa..Anyway.. As I said yesterday, I love doing henna and you must have seen some of my experiments on my hands and others and I never actually took any art class in my early days (as many people ask me that). Its just.. hm.. im not even sure how I have those ability to do flowers. hihihiii..

My friends saw the ugleessss flower on my hand that I designed wrongly yesterday (and hoping no one would realize the ugliness) and surprisingly they want me to do it on their hands. yay! more hands to experiment on. I actually joked that, If you want, then go buy henna. zoom!! there they goes and the henna is here. I hesitated but seeing their faces made me want to try the best that i can. first one to go was kameng.

few months back, kameng requested me to 'Inai' her on her wedding but I really have no confidence on doing so. I dont want to ruin her beautiful hands on her wedding day. as she keep insisting, I agreed. but unfortunately something came up and she got another henna artiste recommended by someone she cudnt 'say no'. so she apologetically told the news to me.

For me its okay. as long as kameng happy with her choice ^_^ but then she told me that she was unsatisfied with the outcome of the recommended henna artiste. So, to sampaikan hajat the one-week newly wed bride, I did the best for her after her wedding. I hope she love the result ^_^

Kameng's hand.

done ^_^

then I move to pou's hands. she requested a design but her left was ugly and I refused to take a photo of it. Its too hideous. Pou Im sorry your hand was a trial-and-error for me. ^_^ hihiii~ but her right was okay though. I tried a new flower on her right.

in making of her right hand.

oh yeah, that's her ugly left.

Hanni envied their hands and wants to join in the fun too. so, yeah.. I have a lot of tryouts today. Hanni's designs are simple and easy as it is a repetition of the earlier flowers and pattern.

pointing out where I shud go next

Hanni's done ^_^

Last but not least was Khal's hand.
I really love this one. almost perfection ^_^

HOLIDAY MOOD IS IN THE AIR!!

2010-06-11T15:44:00.009+08:00

Hahaaa. nope we're not having holidays yet *boohoo~* I still have 1 more days to end my 6th semester for this year, and yes.. I'll be having my final semester (the management year) by July (wUu~ freaky~) Lets just hope the best will come. Im still thinking what will be my new semester wishes. hmm~

So anywayyyyyyy~ Im having my holiday mood oredy. Ive prepared lotsa stuffs to fulfill my needs and plan things that would occupy me during the hols to kill boredom. Of course, here are some of the things.. let see.

My all time favs

1. HENNA-TATTOOING.

Ive been practicing and practicing and experimenting new designs and flowers. how I really wish I have more hands and feets to experiment on. but no, I wont do it for any weddings or engagement party whatsoever.. I have no guts to try and ruin the beauty of the bride-to-be's hands. Im still learning to refine the abstracts.

I really have this one particular problem.. the point or the tip, its very hard to not cut it too big. I always end up with huge flowers. I hate it. if only there's tools or utensils available in brunei, I may buy and collect it.

moving to feets.

hope I do well next time.

2. SCRAP-POSTER
OR PHOTOS ON MANILA CARD

If I cant do scrapbook, I always move to scrap poster or small2 photo frames which are easier to do and the basics are easily accessible even in a kampong shops. for scrapbook I always go for perfection, that's why I never tried one. there's always sources missing. even small2 stars. This is what I usually name the Ultimate holiday project! ^_^ *proud* (apakan aku ah.. setresss~)

when I talk about project,
one thing comes into Azrin's mind..

3. Crazy Dance.

Oh yeah, Did I ever mention that I love to do home-video dance and can only be seen by closest friends and family? hahahaaa :D yeah, I do dance. the earliest dance that Ive tried was... Belly Dancing. "Serious? with a body like that??" yeah~ dead serious! ^_^ Im not that great lah, just simple2 thing like shimmy and all.

I always recall my first time dancing infront of audiences; was during my Nursing orientation and everyone was like "Shakira! Shakira!". swaying and gyrating my hips and I didnt expect the feedback would be tremendous. It was very humiliating + happy berabisly, all in one. From Dangdut, Ive moved to Kpop. Now Im practicing 4minute's Hit Your Heart (Huh). Hope I'll be able to do it within the hols. Jiayou!! Hwaiting! ^_^

4. Cook Bits & Pieces

Its what I call 'em. I love making bits and pieces that usually took more than 5 hour to prepare but few minutes to just tungap-it-all. pheww! I want to try sushi so badly. I love Lea's Kimchi Fried rice. I think she also wants to try and make Jajangmyun and Kimbap. so yeah~ I want holidays like.. NOW plisss!!! :D

HOLIDAYS, HURRY COME!! ^_^

end of first week at OT: BLOOD DONOR

2010-06-03T18:27:00.005+08:00

Yes, aku pun notice. my post title getting weirder and weirder udah.. harharharrr.. malas ku ingau. sangal ku mikirkan.. anyway, anyhow, any whatsoever.. tadi patang there's no cases available so we're open to do something good for the nations *chyee, over aku ah* which I decided and urged my friends to donate blood to Tutong hospital blood bank (sorry darls~). Yeayyy!! :D I love giving something without cost me much ka-ching ^_^ *winku-winku*

exciteeeeeee~

moon accompanying me..

right name? okay! Im ready!!

I cant concentrate on the camera sudah.. I was too takut bnrnya.. huehueeee~ ngeri liat itu jarum manyak bisar wwooo.. nda plg sebasar badanku~ huehuehuehueeeee~ awu, joke ku makin lame.. aku tua sudah. shh! jgn kacau me~ ^_^ *aku mereng* (effect derma darah ka?) haigooo~

cucuk itu local anesthesia..

itu jarum besar masuk! ^_^

Im so happy to see my blood.. argh.. happy berabis!

Alhamdulillah, Ive done another good deeds.. I hope with my mini simple small action, I can help people that have blood disorder and sejenisnya.

close-up on the machine.

DONE! ^_^
blood, take care with your new owner nanti.. treat him/her well.. help him/her to live long.. InsyaAllah, If time allows, I'll do another derma darah.

clinical here: TUTONG OPERATING THEATER ^_^

2010-06-02T18:15:00.004+08:00

Ive been telling people about Operating Theater (OT) in Tutong yet nobody seems to believe yang di Tutong ada OT. sure, yes its a small pekan whatsoever, but people... Ive been there. I 'worked' there. I was sent for a month attachment there and Its been fun and very-very unexpected. Now, I'll be attached here for 2 weeks. The staffs has been anticipating for my comeback (yeah, I know~ Im irresistible eyy? *winku-winku*) happeee~ Im really happy to come back here and work with them again :)

[take note plis: name of any staffs, any surgeons, any students, any attendants are kept secret. that's why Im not mentioning any names nor patient's personnal identification here. not even his/her type of surgery that was performed nor the body parts involved. Its confidential and I should not breach it.]

me and the staffs

chillin' before surgery starts..

still waiting for the surgery to start...

bila jua ku nda mengambang..

me from different angle..

another me.. assisting the surgery during an operation..

I took this photos while my friends watch the staffs, surgeon and 1 of us going through a surgery.

the counting of blood-soaked gauze.

That's it! ^_^ I cant share much as I used to clinical di sini, there's more photos of last time clinical, you can see it here.. CLICK THIS WORD ^_^

ah yeah.. Im still in love with this Idiot.

Ochan sayah sayang kamOuk! ^_^
Baby, I shall celebrate our imaginary lover-sary~
<333 chiuUuu~ rabu-rabu dess!!

PEIJAH's WEDDING: THE RM8S BACK TOGETHER

2010-05-30T09:09:00.001+08:00

Remember the 5 of us together? ^_^ yeah, I miss 18BTs roomates. how I wish we're still in MJ and not where we are right now.. not that Im being ungrateful, but the new changes led us to separations.. uhuhuhuuu~ sedih!! :'D anywaysssss..

Today, dgn berpakaian ala group nasyid or pekerja catering.. whatever you want to call it.. we gather just to attend an old friend, Peijah's wedding. Gawd.. I feel so grown up right now.. my friends are getting married, having kids on their own, produce ka-ching and buy houses.. man, am I the only one who still wants to chill, play world at war on FB, crying over upcoming exams and eat continuously until I disfigured? yuhuhuhhh~

we are wearing the same kain but different designs. Im going with Punjabi style.. but aku rimas berabis that the kain was so thin and thankfully inda transparent.. Ceca's also nice, kebaya.. Domi and Mami are very similar while kaseh has different neck and wrist.

Im really happy that the canvas were booked especially just for Peijah's friends. guys and girls were there. Its good the go into your own group rather than scattered with the other peeps.

aigoo.. food, glorious fooooooodddddd~

we're in the house for photo sessions.

the groom and the bride.

cheers to the newly wed couple ^_^

kamal & peijah

May Allah bless her and her husband. May her marriage stays forever. May nothing breaks their happiness. Stay Happy Stay Healthy ^_^ Amin.

SO MUCH TO UPDATE, SO LITTLE TIME...

2010-05-28T04:49:00.000+08:00

Hi there. Again and again and again Ive repeated.. Ive been busy *phew* Its annoying huh? yep. well, I rarely involve in extra curricular activities since in high-school but now I think Im involve in Belia Kampung's ECA. Im not sure I'll be able to keep up with these ECAs thingy.. its tiring and it stole my precious time.. anyway, just wanna share couple of photos.. oh okay, let me rephrase that.. let me share with you few photos.. ^_^ prepare to puke, I may overtook a lot photos of me~ lalalalalaaaaa~ our one-day civic course and penyampaian sijil ceremony.

I love souveniers. by the end of the day, I have 3 notebooks (my favs!) yeah~ a pen, a sticker for car, lotsa pamphletssss~

here are my fellow youths and other staffs from the ministry of information, prime minister's office. this photo was taken after we had our lunch at Nurizna's. I was so full due to the heavy breakfast served earlier. chicken rice for breakfast? *crazy* ^_^ can you see where I am, I was with my lame-O peace~

we visited the RTB's building. not much interesting.. I makes me remind of my very, very favourite channel.. the capital FM. I usually streaming it online, when I listen to it, I feel this rush of.. i dont know.. lotsa emotions. I miss it so. I used to listen to it everynight, I never shut the radio off during the night just to listen to the songs played by the DJ of capital FM. huuh..

one of Pelangi FM DJ. I dont know his name.
serious. is it Raihan? Hans? Wallahualam.

I love Pilihan. Its an alternative of capital FM (for me lah). Once I listen to them playing Super Junior M - Super Girl on air. yeahhh~ sadly we weren't allowed to go in and see the DJ. awh too bad. I dont know any of them but I just wanna see how they speak when they are on air ^_^

my fav news caster!

it ends here. this is a ballroom where we had our last tea and lecture on how to address the royalties with titles. I took some photos from the singgahsana (Lapau) but Im not sure if we were allowed to post it online. so I wont put it in lah~ from 7am to 530pm.. its worth it jua lah, but I kinda.. tired berabisly.

whenever you undergo a course, mesti ada..
Majlis Penyampaian sijil belia-belia menyertai
Program kursus sivik.

hahahaaaa.. apakan aku ah.. ^_^

naik itu pentas, ambil itu kertas~

chajanggg!!! ^_^

can you spot me? Im not giving the usual lame-O peace.

me with my fellow youths. happpeeee~ ^_^

CHUAHEII! GBYE KIARONG, HELLO TUTONG!!

2010-05-26T05:37:00.000+08:00

Yep.. Im leaving CDC Kiarong. Im sorry to say.. when some people find there fun and enjoyable, I find it torturing and social isolation and.. lifeless. okay, again Im sorry. Maybe, Its just because Im not used to a place that doesnt fit my clinical setting. I love being on my feet and talk and have fun with patients, entertain them.. Im not use to sit and wait for patient, then using my mind credibility to do some good deeds. no, I cant. so, here.. Im impressed with them who work there.. keep it up ^_^ but.. there will be one thing I'll remember the most...

ICEs.

yum-yum! Halo-halo, ABC, Patbingsoo.. whatever you called it, I like this thingy.. Its fatty and creamy and all. yeah, no wonder aku makin mengembang luas ^_^ but yeah, Nassir and I macam urg gila mencari this thing. I dont like snow ice tho, nda feel~

I love cute kids.

bila jua ku nda sinting.

sampit woii! sampit!!

me and the juniors.

tired. Gbye CDC (Kiarong)~

Next stop? Yeah, I'll be heading to OT (Operating Theatre) In Tutong!! yeehhhaaa!! ^_^

CONT' CLINICAL & AIDAN'S 7 ^_^

2010-05-20T17:53:00.000+08:00

Haaahh.. really, I didn't have much time to rest. After the Demo thingy, I must immediately go for clinical along with my friends that did not involve in any of the demos. It was very fun and I was sad to see very, very sick and incurable lil' ones.. I really hope for miracles to happen to our princess, Adi Noor Fitri. May Allah bless her, may she lives long and healthy. No photos of her (Im sorry) as to protect privacy but Ive uploaded just one to my twitcount.

Anyway, here are some photos that I took with my clinical-mates on my first and last day at paediatric ward in ripas hospital.

Rashidah ^_^

Mairah, Eena & Nadya ^_^

Nadya, Rashidah ^_^

eENa-loOVe ^_^

Syiera, ZeEMaH, Mairah, EeNa, EeFa, ShiDah

Bye-bye ward 2 ^_^ we enjoyed it!

Thanks for taking care of us while we were placed there.

AIDAN's 7TH BIRTHDAY.

will not talk much, just sharing photos and little bit of captions. but before that, my sister Nance had texted me earlier to be ready with the things that she bought for her eldest son. Lea and Atin were also informed so, we made a surprise ^_^

gift from Aidan's parent.

the cake (loOvEey~)

careful not to stumble upon the darkness..
lights from the camera.

Atin's squating so Aidan wudnt see the candlelight.

SURPRISE!!! Happy Birthday Aidan!

Ready to cut the cake..

the three siblings.

Chacha's hapee~ ^_^

THE DAY IM+MJ EQUALS TO IHS

2010-05-19T17:16:00.001+08:00

Ive been reaaaaaalllyy busssyyy.. seriously! chicha busy! tired lorrr.. I'm involve in the opening of new name to our college which comes to no shock as it is expected for so long oredy. Maktab Jururawat (Nursing College) and Institute of Medicine will be no longer exist as both course are changed into PAPRSB Institute of Health Sciences. So, Her Royal highness Princess Rashidah was the guest of honor, and we were honored to be pick to present a skill demonstration to her royal highness.

days over days of practice and preparation were ready to accept her royal highness visitation and air of anticipation could be felt. I was selected as the model for history-taking procedure which im very happy as it is quite simple task but after transformation, and another transformation of sickness that i should act-out its quite tiring yowh.. reallyy... let see what I've been doing for the past three days...

DAY ONE:
BRIEFING & AMPUTATION

This is the day we got briefed by skills' incharge which is Tch Syndee Stone. She really wishes us the best and hope we'll manage things well.

I was required to wear a patient's uniform which I wear Laerdal's as nothing fits me that well. I can assure you (not to brag) that anything I wore or used may seek people's attention and its quite embarrassing at times to see people laughs but most of them love it and usually took pictures with me ^_^

I really, really appreciate that Tch Liew Moi really, REALLY help me a HUGE LOT. she decide what kind of sickness I should suffer, my dialogs and all that. she helps me with my baju and all.. kesian tch.

DAY TWO:
DRY-RUN REHEARSAL & CAR ACCIDENT

tired...

there's a LOT of camera today and the cameras love me, so Im happy to do ugly-mugly crazy pose as I like. oh, you notice? Tch have changed the scene from amputation case into road traffic accident case. I was suppose to act as a mother who got into car accident with another car. see the process of making ME look terrible (below). first, hand bandage (roll-style and figure-of-8) then assist by tch, then neck cuffing, then arm-slinged, then tied-it all up.. then Im ready! ^_^ oh, may I remind you, below will be vaining photos of me and my fellas stupiditing around while waiting for the VC to start the dry run.

friends that shows demo along me..

DAY THREE:

ACTUAL DAY & MOTORBIKE ACCIDENT

chajang!!! saja ja~

Yeah, Tch Liew Moi loves changing scenes. So I am now a mother who just sent her kids to school this morning but my motorbike (chyeee minah motor beb!) got bump by a car and I was thrown away to the road and ada ngingis (laceration) di pipi. Tch said I will kana make-up today~ yeah~ let see how they changed me..

My tudong was changed into something more.. babu-style.. my pengaras tudong was put away and my spec too so that it wont interrupt the make up process. while Neecha (the make-up artist) intervene my facial area, Cg Liew Moi immediately attacked my arms.

see the make-up progress. beauty huh?

I become a star, thanks to Neecha.

more and more and more photos...

My make-up artiste, Neecha (above) and Mawar, my helper.

That's it.

the demonstration went well. I guess. I didnt see Her Royal Highness face as it is too crowded and my neck cuff is killin' me if I move. so yeah, I will now continue with my clinical weeks joining my other friends ^_^

KAMPUNG TRIP TO TEMBURONG

2010-05-16T06:23:00.000+08:00

I woke up early around 3.00 am, NOT for the visit but for the purpuse of getting good connection in early subuh.. around 6.30 am, we went to the checkpoint where the bus have waited and we are ready to go.I really thought I was the only youth there but Thanks Allah, Neena was there too. Its been a while I havent met her. Updated each other with life's news. She just got her license this year and so am I! hahahahaaaa :D the good thing is, her parents let her drive anywhere oredy, mine's dont. urgh.

Neena and me

Its a long, loonnnggg.. LLOONNNGGGG journey and it drives me nut. I feel sleepy but cant sleep as I anticipate too much for what's waiting for us. So, I spend a lot of time chit-chatting nonsense with Neena, mostly about psychiatric thingy, my fav ^_^ after going off the bus 3 times for stamping passport, we finally arrives at the ferry area that leads us to Temburong.. yeay!! *excited much*

and oh, be prepare, I might used the lame ol peace too much today and I may give you a double peace too. drivin' u crazy~ hahahahaa :D

ferry area..

going in..

hurrily in..

Neena looks nice in shades

here goes my peace~ ^_^yeah! sampai! double-peace for mukim bangar!

and another double peace for belais and buda2!

this is the kampung that me along with the elderlies intends to visit. Why? becauseeeee this is the kampung that won the Anugerah Kampong Cemerlang.. We want to see how brilliant it was..

Entering the Taman Warisan. you come you judge, I wont describe much. but just a view, you can see chips stall there.. traditional gamelans (gulingtangan and the gang), manik-crafting and gallery.

adoring the manik case.souveniers ^_^

Okay. I have said that Bandar (Brunei-Muara) Is a good place for fun and entertainment. KB is a good place for Retirement and pension elderlies who wants a peaceful place to live. Tutong is a place for traditionals (especially Dusun) and games. Temburong.. hmm.. My friends have told me that staying in Temburong would be macam... Lifeless. NO LIFE! but...

for me, Its not THAT total lifeless.. Its a beautiful place for sight-seeing and scenery adventure. boring? can be, but take it like this.. enjoy the greens while it is still green.. you wont be seeing the greens a lot these days.. right? so Its nice for a change :) for camerawoman and men.. its a wonderful place for photo-taking.. I recommend this place for outings.. so here it is.. TEMBURONG IS A GOOD PLACE FOR SIGHT-SEEING AND PHOTO-FREAKOS OUTING! ^_^

examples...

sayangnya the model aint a beauty ^_^

not very well taken but the place is good ^_^

ugly model, nice place ^_^

come, cuti-cuti Temburong! ^_^

IM A BUSY WOMAN ^_^

2010-05-15T03:34:00.001+08:00

Hi. as an opening today, I would like to share with you a refreshing photo ; the one that I capture in early morning; the one that says 'hi~' to me with a cute-CUTE white dry smell...Hi~ ^_^
found her when I got out of the car.
and nope, I didnt step on it.
they're just to cute to be killed :D

anyway... as I told you about the last schedule.. they are slight changes.. for next week I wont be able to go for clinical for 3 days, as the college need me and my other 6 friends for Princess Rashidah visit where we will be showing our clinical skills on that particular day. As, a warming up; I joined the midwiferies for their OSCE as a helper earlier today. It was fun-FUN! ^_^

Me in my station:
trolley, me and Dyg Sabreena ^_^

the table that I stop-by a lot, If my stations are empty I'll be helping the examiner to do some paperwork here. low budget = less staffs :) huehueee~

me and the 5 helpers.

after midwiferies' OSCE, I went to the class to find its almost half empty (or is it half full? hmm?) and decided to join Shirleena and Yen for lunch. We went to Rasamas. The chicken were actually quite nice but very, very irritatingly.. the sprite (drinks) that I ordered tastes yucky!! seriously, I would have killed any passers-by at that time for being really mad at the drink. Its tasteless, its water with a lil bit of sweet, no fizzy and it smells kutak!! *argh.. what a nightmare*

that's the new drink I bought at a nearby shop.with a lil bit of ka-ching out..

Shirleena and I do a lil' bit of shoppin'

counting the money I have left. They ask me "Why? (do u need more money)". I answered "Need it for Temburong tomorrow." They asked again "Apa ada di Temburong?" I replied "Kan meminang c-nassir, cukup ka inda duit ku ani ah kan mbali dulang lagi.. :D" harharharharrr

SHORT DAILY ENTRIES FOR LAST WEEK

2010-05-13T21:21:00.008+08:00

Today 13/05/2010

This is what infornt of me baru-baru tadi.. Im finishing up my Introduction for my dissert, Alhamdulillah siap. I have an appointment with Cg Hj Julaini on the 15th. at 230pm. Lets just hope I did well, so I wont be balik2 mbuat dissert ah Nauzubillah.. sangal ku.

Then my upcoming schedule should be..
16th, I'll be going to Belais & Buda-buda Temburong.
17th, I'll start Ward 2 clinical at RIPAS.
18th, OSCE model for Midwiferies.
19th to 26th, clinical as usual.
2oth, Aidan's Birthday.
27th, Nance's Birthday
27th, to RTB and Jabatan Adat Istiadat.
28th, attending kursus sivik.
30th, Attending Peijah's Wedding with rM8s

Wednesday 12/05/2010
YUM! I always love a good.. GOOD food~

I really love this. Its like a salad but in murtabak roll. Its quite cheap too. For 6 pieces its $2.50 ^_^ and if you get this on a 'happy hour' you'll get free drinks. its from WYWY.

Free drinkieessss~ ^_^

Tuesday 11/05/2010

Nice and simple eyy? I love the colour.

On Tuesday, Me and My rM8s (remember?) gather to buy some new kain for Peijah's, Ceca's friend wedding. Its been a while we didnt go out together. been busy, phm2lah.

Ceca's paying the kain with money collections.

vaining people..

Happy on what we have picked.

loviesss Chiu~ <3>

Kerbo and I

Oh, thanks sheedah for giving me this sweets. I love it like berabisly but cant eat too much lah, ijab kencing maniTH yuu~ I love the colour.. It's so.. Gee Gee Babby Babby~ :D

Sunday 09/05/2010

wOot! yeah, Im back to hostel for just 3 days.. to refresh my mind, hibernate from internet and my families as I cant study around them, I'll be playing around too much If I do.. hihihii~ Those are Moon (Pink), Elza (sitting) and Kerbo.

scrunched face.Im drinking.. coffee..?? no, NO.
I dont drink coffee. I drink milk teas only.
It seems that the hostel was full of bears.

Monday 10/05/2010
how was the exam? fine ^_^
vaining baby doing my pout~

oah Im proud, she got my pouty lips~

Wednesday 05/05/2010

WYWY with Nance. Thanks ^_^

Food, Glorious food~ The lamb chop was nyaman and cheap jua for $6 dollar I think dgn nasi goreng. yum-yum~ Never forget salad in murtabak roll~ ^_^

and Oh, I laughed seeing this banner.
"Luar Biasa berkuasa penuh??"
like.. WTH is that?

BILA BINI-BINI BETAMU..

2010-05-06T05:40:00.000+08:00

seblom kamu salah paham.. bukan beyamu maksudnya bejual di pasar tamu ah.. pliss.. no.. bukan itu.. maksud betamu means bejumpa tu~ hihihiiii.. ah Iatah kan ku ceritak ani.. si bini-bini ayu ani siuk ni kalau di bawa kurapak. she's my junior. batah udah nda kejumpahan kelibatnya di campus atu *hem-hem* hantah bhapa saja kan ia.. aku lagi lalai betapa dalam classroom memanjang udahnya ampir2 kan exam ani.. hihiiii..

so, pertemuan bermula kembali di facebook...

bejabih punya bejabih, bekurapak inda pandai sadang-sadang.. ah iatah namanya.. bukan lagi bini-bini biasa.. iatah namanya ratu gossip.. apatah lagi mun dua2 inda pandai diam.. nah.. sah ngam tia kacang dgn kulit.. memannnjjjaaaannggg tahhh begila nganya.. so aku setup-bai lah arah durang ayu punya seminar room dimana mereka sedang menjalani OSCE prep dgn intensivenya...

dan sesungguhnya preparation durg atu tergendala akibat gangguan dari aku.. huehuehuehueee.. nda pandai abis2 lagi c-mamex ketawa.. abis ilang apa yang dalam kepala.. hahahahaaaa

so, aku yg kebulur pun majal minta bawa makan..

cam si bnr c mamex ah mbawa buku ke tempat makan.. nda bejangkau, inda besubuk, inda bebuka tu buku ah.. ampai2 tah begitu saja.. c ayu ni ali2 sibuk be mekap tah ia.. so apalagi..

aku pun cam si banar join sekaki memekap..

hapiz hari tu.. jadi driver kami... hihihiiii~

Ayuuuuuu!! sayah rindu awak sudah ni! :D

abis exam bisai ni mun chau mlanji lagi~ ^_^

ITS AN INTENSE STUDY-WEEK

2010-05-05T05:24:00.000+08:00

Before, I forgot..

Happy Birthday Munyati! ^_^

There's a lot of Birthdays this month; sadly my allowance come out late that few birthdays have passed. This goes to Amanina, Aqilah, Suryani, Aunt Yee Wah, Jah Kepah and advances will be Aidan, Nance, Hazny.. *sigh*

Its almost exam, and I started to tie a head-band with 'LETS FIGHT!!' wordings on it. I really hope it will be over soon but I really hope Im fully prepared jua.. which Im not but I really want it to end without even enduring it.. haiyoh.. kalau ada tima machine bisai ni.. atau cheating spells ka that I can easily conjured masa exam so I wont be susahkan hidupku dgn menghafal and membaca..

scribbles.. writings here and there... how i wish the pen write by itself as we read the notes. my fingers ligament2nya abis teputus udah bakas bnyk menulis..

when Im stressed, music helps me a lot but my hands continue to type more notes on PC.. but yeah, I still spent time watching Korean TV shows that Lea have downloaded online like the invincible youth G7, Star King, Strong Heart and Im sticking to Drama series like Legend Of the Seeker and A.n.jell ^_^ I feed my obsession to PC for like.. one episode per day but if Im tired of studying I'll be sitting for 4-7 hours of drama marathon. heee~

but.. still.. writings is a priority.. for me, its best that we write the notes as it is more absorbable to my precious mind. Using PC will have more distractions and its hard to concentrate ^_^

surely if you're daym tired..you could try other paths then~ ^_^

JOYCE WAGNER, May She Rest In Peace...

2010-05-02T05:33:00.001+08:00

WAGNER JOYCE WAGNER, the daughter of Henry Wagner and Edna (Schwartzentrube) Wagner, passed away on April 8, 2010. She was born on Nov. 29, 1949 in Parma, OH. She is beloved sister of James, Gene, Judy Loya and Henry; beloved aunt of 10; and beloved great-aunt of 13. Interment Brecksville Cemetery.

copied from guest book by legacy.com

It is with a heavy heart that we announce the loss of one of our most beloved members, Daytonite. Daytonite was instrumental in working with the nursing students here at allnurses.com. She was always there for them as well as the seasoned nurse. Her love, however, was teaching those in a nursing program by leading and guiding them here at allnurses.com.

Daytonite had been ill for a while; more seriously in the past 8 months. She passed away on April 8th, 2010.

Our sincere sympathy to the family of Daytonite. If anyone would like to place a condolence, here is the online obituary: JOYCE WAGNER Obituary: View JOYCE WAGNER's Obituary by The Plain Dealer . We think her family would be very touched reading the comments from our allnurses family.

We join you in mourning our friend...
Our fellow colleague...
A nurse above all...
A true advocate for the patient...
A teacher who gave of her heart for all who aspired to be a nurse.
Goodbye, Daytonite. You will be truly missed.

With Love,
all the allnurses.com staff

Joyce Wagner. Nick: Daytonite @ Allnurses.com

I dont know who she is.. or was.. but I came across a condolences for her death and I was touched by the comments left by her followers.. she was an inspirations for student nurses and nursing graduates as she stands up for what's right and becoma a voice for the students. Her contributions to nursing was immeasurable. So here, I just want to send my condolences to her family and friends.. may Allah bless her soul. Amin.

here are some comments from the web

Never at a loss for words, Daytonite, had a unique ability to 'let you have it', give hugs, support us newer nurses with kindness, and always her straightforward approach was appreciated. I will miss her wisdom and guidance. Thank you for giving yourself to us across the states and touching so many nurses! You are greatly missed. There were times I would look and read on because you had commented on a topic. I knew you were a great nurse and always took your advice to heart. I will never forget you wisdom. God Bless Daytonite!
-Valerie Chevremont, Allenton, Wisconsin.

I knew Joyce from a nursing website, in the student nurse section. Joyce was a nurse and those who know, realize that nurses are also teachers. Joyce excelled at both. Her wisdom, advice and knowledge assisted me through school. She was a treasure and an excellent mentor.
- Michelle Schoenfeldt, Redford, Michigan.

My prayers and thoughts go out to the family of joyce. I am a nursing student and I haved used the lessons and words of Daytonite to help me with numerous assignments. the thought and care she put into assisting students was unmeasuable. I am amazed by how many students she assisted and seeing her name on almost every entry in the student forum. Her legacy will be remebered by us all who she helped.
- Daniel Oreta, Costa Mesa, California.

SELAMAT ADAU GAYOH!! ^_^

2010-05-01T04:29:00.000+08:00

Of course kamu tau apa Adau Gayoh.. Its an annual celebration for the Dusuns similar to Hari Raya or Christmas or Gong Xi. As Babu Yawah Birthday today, she requested to bawa ia jalan2 open houses.. resulting we went to 3 houses by the end of the day..thinking of Deepavali?
hahahaaaa.. Its a very unique and authentic decos.. I feel like i went to an Indian wedding with all those hangings and colours. very festive!

the crowd thickening..

see? Deepavali~ ^_^

moving to the food buffet~

the unique hangings..

sitting infront of me..

me and lea

this is the second house that we went to..

there's too many people!

the elderlies were drunk! hahahaaa :D larap~

last house.

I love the food here.. and the bites on the table also bnyk..

Im happy. end! :D

FRIDAY FOODS & CELEBRATORY HENNA ^_^

2010-04-30T05:49:00.000+08:00

What happen when two starving horse (napsu kuda) stumble upon a restaurant?? They got themselves a very, VERY heavy breakfast! :D harharhar.. nda cali? of course lah! aku bukannya joking! hahahaaa :D aku palau~ hikhiksss~This morning, my sister Nance urged me to accompany her jalan ke bank.. sayah pun dgn rasa berat hati dan malasnya, ikutlah saja ke mana kakinya melangkah.. kbulur gi tu, alum makan.. sepertinya kakak ku ini pun kelaparan.. kami pun berjemaah menyinggah ke Fun Bread yang ada di Gadong sebaris Shinobu Sushi and 3 salon kecantikan yg aku inda ingat namanya..

Wah. panjang udah rambut ku~

Order punya order, tanpa di sengajai..
jadilah sebuah meja yang penuh dan sempit..

APPETIZER - Apple Strudel, Choc cheese tart & blueberry cheese tart

STARTER - Fatty-Matty French Toast

STARTER - Egg Bennie

SIDE DISH - Egg Grande

MAIN COURSE - Fried Nissin Special

DESSERT?? uweekk!! udah tah kbuntuan ku!!

Nani message saying Mama suruh balik makan di rumah Utan around lunchtime but I cant as I have works to finish, my dissert but masa dinner, Nani text lagi so.. Lea and I went there to makan ^_^

Yum~ ^_^

Dikala mbuat dissert punya Intro, aku pun tiba2 kebosanan.. so aku ukirlah tangan putih ni dgn henna.. Henna nya annoying, kurang baik ah.. skatul2 kluarnya, kess karing udah.. larap..

from this..

to this..

to almost full now...

VOILA!! done! ^_^

IM DOING AAAAA-OKAY ^_^

2010-04-29T20:49:00.005+08:00

People have been asking.. "Fakhira, you must be busy for hibernating from your dear blog.." "You must be all stressed up.." "You must be this.. you must be that.. blahblahblah.." with imagination that I tied my head with "HARD-WORKING!!" lines on my forehead.. nope lerrr.. tidak sama sekali tidak.. ^_^

this is the first time I feel calm and chill going thru test and practical exams.. I was not hibernating.. I'm just lack of updates that's all. My life aren't that fabulous kan? harharharrr~ I'll change my blog's title some other time saja~ and and.. masani Im not just growing pumpkins.. Im growing pimples too!! wah so banyak woo my pimples here and there~ hahahahaaa :D

anyway.. YEAAHHH!! Ive done my OSCE!!! for the last time.. I will never go thru OSCE again!!! amin, amin, amin.. except if aku mau ambil degree lah ah~ amin jua~ ^_^ Im in my third year, so tadi pagi was the last OSCE lah.. It was.. oke oke aja~ ^_^

This is the photo of me and elza and farah in post-OSCE room. we were quarantined inside there for almost like.. 2 hours.. waiting for other friends to get their turns.. I brought some snacks so we wont starve.. ^_^

Kerbo never not-there ^_^

I would really like to Thanks Arif for the story-telling session after the exam, its a tension-releaser moment.. I really like his blabbering nonsense yet it made me laugh and so as the others. harharharrr :D

to celebrate my last OSCE, tonight.. I hosted a... poker night with my nephews and Lea.. Its just a mini game where the loser will be patted with powder on his/her face.. hahahaaaa :D much better than betting with money. wasted~ ^_^

Aidan & Adam

Lea

Me & the kids

we had fun! :D It was awesome~

anyway.. for the past few days Ive been missing,
here's some photos on where and what I was doing..

Went to Aunt Yee Wah's house to antar rainfresh, ke rumah ojii jua.. pun antar rainfresh and oh ke rumah Aunt May Lan jua.. heheee~

I love the scenery ^_^

For the past few days jua Ive been disappointed berabisly becoz my baby pumpkins smua mati coz ujan nda mau branti and I was very mad and almost cry to see my mini kabun lacah and the labu nada lagi (daym!!) so maybe, I will replant all my labu back by building a stronger nicer farm with a proper fertilize tanah.. nanti yaaa.. sasak ku eyh!!

see the rain wont stop.. but...
Me & Lea....

How I wish it is a gum-drops..

Heroes? *sigh*

Here's what ive been doing around college..

I was playing with najwa's ligthing pen..

It was so pretty, I was enchanted by it~

Lyan's playing with my LG babby~

That's it!! :D
will update if I have something to share~

STEALING TIMES

2010-04-26T05:35:00.000+08:00

Ahh.. I cant stop from nagging you guys on how busy I am.. yes, Ive done mid semester for peri-operative nursing.. hope i did well.. now I'll be sitting for my practical exam (OSCE) *sigh* and yeah, Im workin' on my dissertations.. happy that I found lot sa articles~ ^_^ anyway, despite of my busy-ness, I NEVER forget doing leisures too ^_^ I steal some time for World at War at FB.. then I henna-tattooed my relatives as they requested.. and hang out with Kerbo too ^_^ Life's been good and its too typical too share.. hence, less blog update! ^_^ anyway.. here's some pictures.

My Aunt May Fong want this ^_^

Some henna left for Aunt Chin Mei ^_^

extreme vaining girls alert!

girls will be girls~ aww~ :E

I AM A PROUD MOTHER OF TWO ^_^

2010-04-20T19:41:00.006+08:00

Cha-janggg!!! hihihiiiii *giggle manith*

look at those two cuties of mine~ my baby pumpkinsssss grows well.. so cute I want to kiss them everyday~ yeay~ my labu tumbuh~ my labu tumbuh~ ^_^ hihihiiii~ Who says teenager nowadays lalai beparam dlm bilik saja mengadap screen 24/7??? (well I do plg BUT..) I do plant things jua ah~~.. GO GREEN!! yeayyy~

This is the batas I did.. Its not that bisai pulang.. I need an appropriate fences for my baby labu.. this is just temporary aku tutup pakai dawai so anjing or ayam wont kakai my babies out of durang punya tanah.. :] I am planning to show you my pumpkin plantation di kabun.. this is my backyard saja.. ada lavender jua but makin wild wah my lavender ah.. kes nda be-trim kan.. ^_^ hihiii~ but yeah, I'll show you my other baby pumpkinsss yang di kabun ahh~ next time..

This people is called lily baby ^_^ I named it after me just tambah babyyyy saja~ :D hahahahaaaa.. yeah, im gettin' girly berabis these days as I am now a mother of two baby labu kan *cute giggle here*~ so.. awu.. hormone rush~ hahahahaaaa :D lily baby is actually pokok kasturi yg menumbuh dengan baiknya.. see, ada daun muda2 fresh menumbuh segar tu? its beautiful yuh? Im happy~

Some people wonder why nowadays I seldom update my blog.. like so jarang lah.. its becozzzzz.. Im busyyyyy *jawapan sanang* Ive been sibuk dengan main World at War arah Facebook -- battling sana sini, missions and all.. haiyohh.. then Im behind my schedule lagi.. my dissert alum bejangkau intronya.. evaluation form alum buat... alum lagi ku start revise apa2.. argh! kima... so, yeah Im so tight up berabis.. ia jua lagi njaga my babies.. hmm~

so, last time i got the opportunity to present my slides after so long ku nanti2kan.. and Im sooo happy that I decided to vain as much as I can with my friends but here's some saja as I dont want to make you guys muntah banyak.. hihihiii~

that's it then! til' next time ^_^

THE USUAL BLABBERING..

2010-04-14T05:45:00.006+08:00

Dear bloggie, hi. Its been a while I didnt write something.. that's because Im soooooooo packed with all these.. shits and stuffs. I tend to sleep early these days (around 7-8pm) to preserve my energy and so i wont look like a zombie in the morning, ah okay fine.. so, I'll keep shining in the morning.. ahhhhh~.

Im currently working on my dissertation bit by bit, little by little.. What is dissertation (dissert)? It is an assignment, the HUGE and most important assignment for the student nurses during their management year and it is actually almost similar to literature review with all the critical thinking and stuff.. we must pass it. If we dont, we will not have our graduation (Nauzubillah) I dont want that.. lets just hope I finish it early..

so other than that, how's the usual thing that i always do? Like.. college? Im doing good. getting iski, eager berabis kan present but I dint get the chance for the past 4 weeks ago sudah.. I prepared the slides so batah oredy but still I didnt got the chance, menyampah aku.. but yeah, the tutor promise me next saturday, I'll have my chance to present febrile convulsion. yeah~ :D

so last saturday, after class we went for foods.. me and the piranhas. (Helen, Elza, Nana, Effa, Kepah, Nadya, Ain. D, Moon, Domi, Hazny and Yen) that's what they called themselves as they eat a LOT and exercise less. well, i think im in the group too ^_^ ahh.. notice my inglis makin larap.. yes, I know.. batah dah ku nda mbiasakan.. hahahaaaaa :D

No, no.. Im not trying to sneeze. I was singing emotionally to Kelly Clarkson's "because of you" hahahaaaa :D we even karaoked at K-box. I love this song. I love shouting and shrieking to it.

when I get bored, I attacked...

Juan My Powkee ^_^

and bargaining Rafi to tukar lapas his mobile with mine.. he got this cool Sony Ericsson (the one I used to take my pictures bnyk2 like right now ^_^). i want it and he dont want to give it to me. hahahaaa :D karritt~

Ice-cweam~

I love Kingston's. Green's mine - Honeydew ^_^

Sengkurong's library had just open.. I think.. 6 months oredy.. I forgot.. so went there to find something good to read. find quite few and the books are not that much jua.. hope it will improve lah. the surroundings are nice though.

Hazny and Moon at the novel section.

Picked one and settled down..

What wud Lea and I be without...

..KIMCHI.

People, I recommend to you Jang In Ju's Kimchi at Pelangi De'Mutiara arah bakas Liang Toon Lama di Tungku kah tu.. apakah namanya kawasan atu.. anu tempat yg ko bleh nampak airplane landing.. ah iatah udah tu.. ujung sekali yaaa.. where also sana atu.. Kipling's dealer tu.. serious bini-bini.. bnyk kipling original sana atu.. mantap.. my sister udah going nuts with all those kipling bags.. daym, bisai2. there's also brunei souvenirs disana atu..

Im not the only one that's LOUD in my house...

I've got my follower :D

How's clinical? Its good ^_^

I enjoy it there. Im scrubbing in.. still :)

stolen photos during surgery. thanks my friend.
see me? Im the one in the middle.

sampat gi meliat.. Im smiling~

I am typically loud,
but when I quieted seeing the intestines coming out...
the surgeon asked "Tired, Akira?"

I said "Nope. Fascinated." ^_^

SCRUB STUDENT-NURSE ^_^

2010-04-09T09:04:00.007+08:00

STOP RIGHT THERE!

This is a prohibited area! ... but not for me! ^_^ I've been wanting to see what's inside the operating theater.. yes, I've been inside an Operating theater but Im either on the operating table or the one just passing by (student visit) where I CANT see the ongoing surgery. Now, I've had those opportunity!! yeahhh~~ Im so happy.. so far Ive seen 7 surgeries. The surgeon and the anaesthetist are very friendly and teach us (students) a lot. They even let the students scrub in and join the procedure. awhh Allah.. Im so hapee!! :D

I cant talk much about what's inside.. not that it is too confidential.. its just the procedure are too complicated too explain, and too many jargeons which im lazy to elaborate. here are some pictures while I did my clinical attachment there. and oh, the staffs were very friendly and adorable. they really help us a lot and encourage us not to be afraid. lovely they are! :D

Me and Azemah in the changing room.

playing with the head scarf. That's Nana.

Proper use of head scarf? pheit.

like this? hahahaaaa :D

ahah. much better ^_^

hai.. this is the area that I can show you. This is theater no. 1. as you can see lotsa stuffs in there and no patient ^_^ there's table.. anaesthetic machine.. trolleys with instruments here and there.. diarthermy machine.. blablablaaaa stop with the jargeons oredy.. okie dokie then move along...

Nana, Azemah, Khaliq and me.

This is my clinical-mates. You must be bored seeing Khaliq now, yeah.. me too.. hahahahaaaaa :D its been like.. how long Ive been clinical with Khaliq..? hmm.. pokoknya lama lah.. and Im tired jua sama ia saja.. but Im happy I have two more extras, Azemah and Nana. phuhhh~ Shares a lot of stories with them and experiences.

This is an OMF surgery. patient & staffs involved in the surgery are confidential. you can only view but wont tell you any names nor type of surgery.. Brunei is a small country, people tends to know who and who.. so let it be shh saja ^_^

Azemah scrubbing in one of the surgery.

getting prepared before the surgery starts was hectic. staffs must make sure this and this must available.. all meds are ready.. machines are functioning well.. Its serious business! ^_^ That's all I can share for now.. Im now busy planting pumpkin seeds.. so see you some other time yuh? :)

lalala bla-bla-bla ^_^

2010-04-06T19:33:00.004+08:00

Haaaaiiiiiiii ^_^ Ive been busy and lazy. hihihiii.. currently im no longer have my clinical attachment in a paediatric (children's) ward.. I am now located in 2nd floor of Tutong's hospital where Im now doing my Operating Theater nursing ^_^ Its been booorrriinnnggg. serious. Not much to do, just elarn and learn and learn which Im so freakin' hat it coz yeah, we can have that thing at college why bother teaching us.. pft.

Here's me and my new clinical-mate, Nana sketching questions on the board so the surgeon will elaborate all to us.

Dr Tun the surgeon.

not much to talk about my clinical placement. I havent experience anything yet. so lets move on to what Ive been doing these past few days. My friend's elder sister, Atoy were just married last sunday. I drove there with Moon by my side. We arrived safely (Alhamdulillah) and the ceremony went smoothly and it was fun to hang out with those kwackee people ^_^

the theme was pinkieessss~

my typical smoochies~

our gadgiesss~

I pray for your happiness, Atoy ^_^

Clinical attachment? Ive covered that oredy.. Leisure with friends? done that too.. how bout college?? College was just okay. nothing special goin on. Im still doing my usual sketching others hands releasing my crave to pen-tattoo ^_^

Im loving it

went to UBD library for Database learning and article/journals searching.

frontview.

left-side view. Juan Powkee.

right-side view. Sampah. ^_^

This is another room where we learn database.

my side view. ewww.. gross!! :D

and oh! Aj killed a snake in my room.

apologies.. may it rest in peace..

EARTH HOUR and my long story...

2010-03-27T07:35:00.000+08:00

Hi there! I went to college today. daym, it was good to see my friends after a long days of clinical! saturday is the only day where we gather back to the class and chitchatting like crazy. wah wah wah!! hahahaaaa :D apakan.. eh eh.. ive been excited about the earth hour tonight and been spreading to my friends, to join the campaign. while i was promoting earth hour, Mimi Najwa; one of my close friends and the only one that calls me gorgeous stopped me.

"Gorgeous. Apa yg Mimi Dgr pasal benda2 melingkar dalam sepindoot gorgeous? Rumours spread udah sampai ke telinga Mimi pasal lipan sama lintah gorgeous ah.. cuba gorgeous cerita arah mimi. mimi mau dgr dari gorgeous sendiri..."

Hahahahaaaaaaa.. ni mesti keraja c khaliq ni. kan ku bunuh ya.. ah.. okayysss.. harharharrr its actually nufink lah.. i told her cerita ani lama udah.. some of you might oredy now it, the one yg lintah IN MY ASS; not my undies. yeah, my ass. its disgusting so i wont write about it again.. here's the link to the post in my old blog CLICK HERE FOR FULL-STORY.

and about the lipan was erm.. lagi batah udah.. i wasn't even a nursing student tuu.. erm.. it was his majesty birthday; so his majesty ada turun ke tutong arah kawasan padang skulah rendah muda hashim which at that times a rainy season and the tanah was very licak berabis.. and a machi warned me "banyak lipan lai eyh." and aku pun berhati2.. and stayed on the plank of woods saja, meniti and bejalan sana sini. so after the majlis selesai and balik rumah and aku ke jamban lah kan pee-pee. aku duduk.. then aku buka itu sepindoot and there it was, teranah melimpang on my sepindoot. serious di tangah2!! entah apa masalahnya binatang itu... bila ia begarak sedikit aku pun buka itu sepindot lakas and squat on the jamban then meniti ke bath tub then ambil tuala arah nearest rack then buka pintu then shout "BABAHHHHHHH!!!" he came and look at it and saying sumfink i didnt remember and after that all was blurry I cant recall what happened and this incident (cheh, incident) happens batah udah kan.. harharharharrr.. so, end of this story lah!

Afternoon, no class. so we went to Mall. karaoke-ing and stuffs. bought Kimchi, kimbap and pizza for movie night + earth hour tonight. and oh, before someone sasak and say.. lalai jalan saja, nada belajar.. wei! ive met my dissert supervisor udah and been working on my dissert, will start tomorrow, maybe plang tu.. huehuehueeee~

anyway, night has come.. at 7pm we start movie night.
we watched Nine. Pizza & Kimchis our snacks.

then its almost 8.30.. Its 8.01pm;
29 minutes more left!!!
*excited! excited!*

excited...

excited...

excited...

excited...kroohhh... krroohhhhh!!!

Ive slept.

why? the Benadryl that I took 3 spoonful hits back. It shud be 1 spoonful but I overdosed it as I annoyed by my chronic coughing and hope it get better soon. hihiiii.. so earth hour.. Im sorry, I think my sister did shut all the lights off. ^_^

2ND VISIT TO MAMA

2010-03-26T06:30:00.000+08:00

Hi ya. harharrr.. ive been noticing that i always use hi ya or hi there lately. copied that from the tracy shaw's salsacise DVD; she pronounce it thick and nicely and i was trying my best to do it. so yeah... Hi Ya~ Im visiting mama again.. coz today its her 12 years of death. May she rest in peace. Amin..

Im still not well by the way, runny nose and chronic coughing all that stuffs. It annoys me much. so here I leave you with photos and a lil bit of captions. will write again tomorrow. ^_^I love to see flaring fire.

BB lesha and Aidan working hard...

bila jua ku inda berigali~ hahahahaaa

aku sdg membodohkan diri dblkang

cute lesha

nini and cucu

burning incense

lesha iski

that's my name! ^_^ norlidia.

bagi bunga itu kepala~

what they call "mandikan apo"

lesha joined in..

gmbr dgn mama..

gmbr dgn my apo..babah main dgn lesha otw balik rmh..

there's a mini gathering afterwards

yalai and AJ yg baru balik dari mancing..

glorious foods....

and a good movie to ends with.... nice.

Mama we misses you ^_^

SHORTS

2010-03-23T19:59:00.002+08:00

What's up with me?

Im getting extreme lazy to online these days as Im having bad cough and runny nose but Im feeling rather well tho. Its just I need a lot of rest as every time I woke up in the morning my cough worsened or even after back from work I have to take Actifed syrup and immediately knocked out. pft. tired.. tired.

How's clinical attachment in Paediatric ward?

Its going well, I guess. I learn a lot and having fun at the same time too. before that, I would like to express my deepest heartfelt condolences to the Family of Dr Khalid & Saher for losing their 4 years old diamond, Mahir Samad. May he rest in peace and may Allah bless his soul, Amin Ya Rabbal Alamiin.

What didcha do this morn?

went to UBD chancellor hall to get vaccinated. I did. and Im getting unwell oredy. my condition worsened but Instead of staying too long on the bed, I prefer went to the farm with babah, helping him to clear the land and planting pumpkin seeds. I took 2 caps of analgesic and a spoonful of actifed syrup and now.. Im ready to bed ^_^ Goodnighty people..

will blog more after I feel... healthy ^_^

NEED A GOOD CRY?

2010-03-20T21:31:00.004+08:00

watch The Blind Sidelea commented
"Last time I cried this bad was during 'I am sam'."
visit HERE for more infos. Its a nice site.

It was a story of Michael Oher.

Im not sure how to explain the story.. so I would just let you read a synopsis from imdb.

A poor, oversized and under-educated teenager is recruited by a major college football program where he is groomed into an athletically and academically successful NFL prospect. Written by IMDb editor

"The Blind Side" depicts the story of Michael Oher, a homeless African-American youngster from a broken home, taken in by the Touhys, a well-to-do white family who help him fulfill his potential. At the same time, Oher's presence in the Touhys' lives leads them to some insightful self-discoveries of their own. Living in his new environment, the teen faces a completely different set of challenges to overcome. As a football player and student, Oher works hard and, with the help of his coaches and adopted family, becomes an All-American offensive left tackle. Written by Anonymous

Above is the picture of real Michael Oher and his family. How to say this.. urm, it is a very, very, VERY sad and touching movie.. I was moved by the sincerity of Touhy's family to accept Michael Oher into their family. Its means that there are still good people out there and Now me and Lea have a motto to hold on which I will not share it here as we must accomplished it first, then we'll tell ^_^ please watch this, i recommend it.

BEING A DAUGHTER IS NOT AS HARD AS BEING A SINGLE PARENT

2010-03-19T05:54:00.002+08:00

Hi. I hve a full babah-day today as early in the morning I had to accompany him to JPMC Gleneagles for a medical check up.. oh hold on, remind me to visit Gleneaglesjpmc.com.bn later as they provide lotsa good infos on cardio-probs. need that ^_^

anyway.. as I said.. I went to JPMC with babah..

Babah is meeting Dr Patrick but since he is on leave (which my babah is grateful berabis becoz Dr Patrick are very strict and scary to him) he was replaced by another doctor which i totally forgot his name but he seems nice ^_^ so he suggest babah to do stress test. I as the daughter request to join in the session, my request was granted ^_^

So I went into the room with babah, the room was nicer than the one in RIPAS hospital as the room give this therapeutic feel and they also provide running shoes and the doctor was very friendly and talkative and shares this information about a malaysian model which I never heard of ^_^ harharharrr.. he's nice. So babah was put on patches for EEG so when he's running on a treadmill, the heart rate shows on screen.

so anyway.. to shorten my story.. its almost lunchtime and babah was admitted to the general ward for angiogram. Babu and I hasten from home just to have a quick shower and packed my babah's stuffs and then back to JPMC.

I really LOVE the soothing seaview outside..

What is babah doing on the picture above? is he on pain? NOPE. he's actually playing with the various buttons on the side-rail walls and keep on clicking on the music and TV button, hoping the things to pop out like the one on TV. pft.

Babah is bored... see the windows.. its 5 pm..see the windows again.. its almost 9pm and we're still there Entertaining babah that keeps on nagging the nurses to discharge him and buka the gelco and kesajukan.. macam2 lah. The only thing that keeps him shut are....

FOODS.

complained how the porridge tasted bitter.he keeps on zombie-talk "biji labu.." if we refuse to give
him roasted pumpkin seeds. Its his favourite.

he requested a "midnight snack" at 7pm *sigh*

that's the end of my day from 8 am to 9 pm belongs to babah. Im not saying that my time is wasted but I used it well ^_^ for babah. hihihiii... Okie then, I love my babah ^_^ eventhough its hard to be his daughter (his demands, expectations and requests) but it is harder to be a parent to three daughters alone. He's suffered enuff, im thinking to repay ^_^

EMLA cream effectiveness: TOTAL SCAM

2010-03-18T06:07:00.000+08:00

Hi there! ever seen the cream on above picture? well I guess some of you might have seen it and some of you might be not. so let me tell you what it is.. it is a local anesthetic. It works by blocking nerves from transmitting painful impulses to the brain. and to be short; it is useful to numbing skin from injections-pain. SO!! me and khaliq did experiments...

I apply it..

and khaliq too.

we wanted to see the effectiveness. Is it really working? so, we follow the direction.. apply it on our skin, sticking a protective-sheet on it and leave it there for an hour. then after an hour... WE INJECTED OURSELF.

Did it work?

hell NO.
It hurts berabisly masihhhhhh!!

did we give up? HELL NO.
we decided to do a second attempt.

Again, we follow exactly all the directions shown
on the EMLA cream box.

I applied it.

and khaliq too.

see? we waited for an hour...

we even had our lunch with it..

after 1 hour, peel the protective sheet off..

taking it off..

Khaliq is ready to prick a needle for the second time into my hand.. we can feel that this second attempt might actually work.. then..

the needle is in.....

AAAADDDAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!
sialan! kan mati! bangsat! brengsek! kima!!
argh!! sasaknya!! masih sakit! menyampah aku!

bah. berakhir lah udah experiment kami.. yang banarnya inda berjaya langsung! and inda effective langsung!! bangkai berabis, mbuang masa and mbuang darah and mbuang tenaga and suara teriak ku saja! sampah!! ^_^

[READ THIS] 2 VERSUS 8: Liability NOT Lazy

2010-03-17T06:15:00.002+08:00

Hi there. Im gonna share you, a poem that was written by an old woman who was a patient in a ward and was ignored by nurses during her hospitalization. just read it.

What do you see, nurse... what do you see?
Are you thinking - when you look at me:
"A crabbed old woman, not very wise;
Uncertain of habit with far-away eyes,

Who dribbles her food and makes no reply
When you say in a loud voice 'I do wish you'd try.'"

Who seems not to notice the things that you do
And forever is losing a stocking or shoe;

Who, resisting or not, lets you do as you will
With bathing and feeding, the long day to fill.
Is that what you're thinking, is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse. You're not looking at me!

I'll tell you who I am as I sit here so still.
As I move at your bidding, eat at your will:

- I'm a small child of ten with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters who love one another;
- A young girl of sixteen with wings on her feet,
Dreaming that soon a love she'll meet;

- A bride at twenty, my heart gives a leap,
Remembering the vows that I promised to keep;
- At twenty-five now I have young of my own
Who need me to build a secure, happy home.

- A woman of thirty, my young now grow fast.
Bound together with ties that should last.

- At forty, my young sons have grown up and gone,
But my man's beside me to see I don't mourn;
- At fifty once more babies play 'round my knee
Again we know children, my loved ones and me...

Dark days are upon me, my husband is dead.

I look at the future, I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing young of their own,
And I think of the years
and the love that I've known.

I'm an old woman now, and nature is cruel.
'Tis her jest to make old age look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles, grace and vigor depart.
There is a stone where I once had a heart.

But inside this old carcass a young girl still dwells,
And now again my bittered heart swells;
I remember the joys, I remember the pain
and I'm loving and living life over again;

I think of the years, all too few, gone too fast
And accept the stark fact that nothing can last;
So open your eyes, nurse, open and see...
not a crabbed old woman.
Look closer... see me!

Sad isn't it? lets read the reply.. it is a poem too.

by a staff nurse. lets read. shall we?

What do we see, you ask, what do we see?
Yes, we are thinking when looking at thee!
We may seem to be hard when we hurry and fuss,
But there's many of you, and too few of us.

We would like far more time to sit by you and talk,
To bath you and feed you and help you to walk.
To hear of your lives and the things you have done;
Your childhood, your husband, your daughter, and your son.
But time is against us, there's too much to do -
Patients too many, and nurses too few.

We grieve when we see you so sad and alone,
With nobody near you, no friends of your own.
We feel all your pain, and know of your fear
That nobody cares now your end is so near.

But nurses are people with feelings as well,
And when we're together you'll often hear tell
Of the dearest old Gran in the very end bed,
And the lovely old Dad, and the things that he said,
We speak with compassion and love, and feel sad
When we think of your lives and the joy that you've had.

When the time has arrived for you to depart,
You leave us behind with an ache in our heart.
When you sleep the long sleep, no more worry or care,
There are other old people, and we must be there.
So please understand if we hurry and fuss -
There are many of you, and too few of us.

Dear Readers...
Fair enough? understand enough?

lets reflect.

This problem occur not just in Brunei but too other countries as well. the poem was wrote by a nurse in reply to a patient who is dead and unsatisfied with how the nurses treat her. the patient proclaimed that she was ignored and left alone but little to her understanding that the nurses were too few to care for her management alone.

I as ALMOST one of the nurses, hope that people would understand. I do wish People would stop cranking and maddening on us as we are doing at our very best to fulfill every patient's needs. Stop complaining as we also have a hand-full of others that also need the same care. Dont ask us to hasten our job as we have a huge responsibility if something bad happen when we rush things.

I was working my PM shift where there were listed 8 patients on the board but only two staff nurses working plus Me and Khaliq, two STUDENT nurses. Both of us, knew how to do MOST of the procedure but we CANT do those things because we must have a staff nurse to supervise and assist us. They are liable for our actions and any mistakes that happen will cost us and the staff nurses as well.

So, to share a story. That night, A patient came with a very, very severe condition. The staff nurses have to treat him with a great care and were busy with handling his managements. Other patients' family members came to us (student nurses) asking for assistance; some simple2 things such as taking vital signs, I can do even without supervision.

BUT giving meds such as nebulizer or even just a panadol syrup... I couldn't! That.. I need supervision. I cannot risk my nursing course and staff nurses' job if I've given overdosage. Im not just killing lives but careers as well. So, I explained details to the family members and thankfully, they understood.

Let me remind, Me and Khaliq were not stupid for just standing at the nurses counter waiting for the staff nurses. We were protecting the patients from harm (that may cause by us), ourselves and the staff nurses liability. You think we are enjoying sitting there doing nothing while people staring and hissing behind us as if we were lazy and idiots.. NO, people.. NO. We did not enjoy it every single bit. we're not blaming our seniors for leaving us as we understand they also have to do their jobs.

people may questioned "Why dont you join the staff nurses doing work?" We have to see the environment first lah. during that time, the severed patient were place in an isolation room where the spaces are limited. The visitors were so packed even when they were asked to go out, 5 people inside were enough to make the room inaccessible. me and Khaliq can only observe the procedure from far away behind the counter, if we were to join in.. we'll be the one to making the room even more crowded and too many hands on A patient may be useless. right? right..

so, after the severed patient have settled. when the staff nurses already at the counter, that's when me and khaliq can easily on our feet. we gave meds, we gave nebulizers, we change linens, finished our vital signs round, complete the Intake Output chart; we just NEED a supervision. please understand that.

Apologies if there's any rude or annoying or irritating words but I just want to clarify that we are trying our best to do everything that we could within a limit of time.. as the poem reads..

there's many of you, and too few of us.

CHEERS FOR 57!

2010-03-16T05:39:00.001+08:00

Aku: "Bah! Knapa kan diluar tu shot karan ah.. tulung liat kan eyh!" di blakang ku bunyi Yalai and Lea riuh rendah pasal knapa kan gelap ni.. mana smua lampung nda bebuka.. blablabla :D

Babah masih sibuk betelipun tapi ready bediri kan meliat knapa lagi karan atu te tripped di luar ah.. sudah tutup itu talian, ia pun keluar dgn sungut-sungutannya "Apa kan lagi masalah karan ani ah.. cemana bulih ----"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
Happy Birthday to you~

(Babah: Brapa haribulan kan ni?)
(Aku: Shh. jgn bising dulu, biar abiskan nyanyi!)
Happy Birthday to BABAHHHHH~
Happy Birthday to YOUUUUUU!!!
Yeeaaahhhh!!

tiup lilin! tiup lilin!

"Brapa aribulan kan ni?" Babah majal tanya.. hihiii.. actuallynya babah punya bday is esok (17/03/2010) but esok we masing2 busy coz if kami celebrate pagi2 bnr.. we wont be ada kemut/selera kan makan kek and if pagi tengahari.. Lea and Yalai wont be ada.. If patang or malam before 9 aku wont be ada as Im off to PM shift duty so we celebrated today saja (16/03/2010). Its just a small family cake party but we have fun. I sure did *teary eyes*

TANJOUBI OMEDETOU OTOSAN!!

*Gila basar tgnku atu*

we pray for babah to panjang umur and sihat walafiat, we pray for babah to murah rezekinya yang melimpah ruah berabis, we pray smua amalan and ibadah babah diterima Allah and diberkahi, we pray supaya babah idup bahagia.. Amin, amin, amin.. aku sayang babah ku berabis.. no, no.. its understatement.. aku chinta my babah berabisly to the max!! :D

kek bday babah ketika "shot karan"

SURPRISE!! babah amaze liat keknya..

still amazed.. amai gi tu menjangkau durinya..

baby lesha yg actuallynya tidor mati tadi iski bangun kan memutung kek brabut sama Adam. Aidan K.O udah, inda tebangun lagi. pemalas hantap. harharharrr :D

cake lovers~

Lea cutting a piece for me..

Durian yang udah bepotong~

Hmmm~ Lesha's lickin' good~ :D

PINK? IM OFFICIALLY WHITE!

2010-03-15T18:29:00.008+08:00

Gaaahh!! Another drastic changes have been made.. Im so missing my old school uniform.. yeah, the one yg so lame yg kaler putih and kainnya pink mcm urg skulah menengah saja usulnya.. yeah, i miss that coz it saves budget and people nda teluan2 berabis gaya whatsoever.. and I dont bother to match the baju with the kasut and the ipin.. daym im half a perfectionist, so I need to match the colour everyday.. hmm~

ahh.. I really miss this uniform. it unifies us..

anyway.. why the title? yeah, as I said.. another changes have been made. we are no longer wearing the PINK uniform. Uuuuwaaaaa~~~ :'[ NOT that I love pink that much but at least that differs us from the staff nurses.. and patients and their family members wont expect too much from us. man, it is scary!!

bye-bye pinkies..

anyway.. I didnt feel much different though being a whitey. I know the patient still acknowledge that we are a student and not a staffs. Currently Im working in a Paediatric ward. So far, its been fun and challenging. Im not sure what to expect yet. Kids are scary.

Its been like what? 8 months we've been attached to clinic settings where we just sit and watch and giving advises. Oh gawd Im so lagging in ward setting that I need to top-up ma head with lotsa stuffs. but Im pretty much get the hang of it. :)

here are some photos..

I bring feast to the ward? what? as a bribe? pft! no lah peopleeeee.. I got the mee from ada this function just near our ward and it happens to be banyak labih and we kana suruh tapau and bawa ke ward. so Me and Khaliq did.

Heee.. I think you know Khaliq ^_^ Ive been hangin' around with him a lot lately, didcha notice there's his photo here and there in my blog posts? why is that? becoz... antah ah.. our schedule banyak sama woo!! dari taun lapas men!! even same group in assignmenting! haiyoohh..

Eyan and Zeymah rocking the PM shift today.

being away from IM kolej makes me miss pen-tattooing people's hands, so on last saturday.. I got my opportunity to musnah kan kebersihan tangan urg and start to luahkan my creativity. harharharrr.. Im so bored man.

Hazny menahan rasa.

Ainn's and Hazny's.
I made one design for me tho. but not on hands..
I henna tattooed a paper ^_^

nice right?, I know.. :)

Hey, currently Im crazy with blingin' my photos! I love it. there's a lot of smoochies emoticons and sexy lips thingy.. simply my kind of thang!! :D WoOOoot!!

Got me sexy~

kiss me aww~ :D hahahaaaaaa..

PEOPLE AND MOBILE PHONES!!

2010-03-14T13:47:00.009+08:00

Hi there! ^_^ Ive been spying and stalking on new phones lately.. I really need sumfink that is simple yet easy to use especially on messaging coz I message almost 20+ per day so I really need a huge keypad that need less click-force and doesn't make me has a carpal syndrome. hihiiii~ but it seems that.. I am not the only one that needs a new thang~ here lets see people's new gadget.

Ive been contacting these couple of people to vain a picture of them with their new phones but it seems they have forgotten about it.. *sigh* anyway..

Eboii, my cousin got himself a brand new Nokia 5800 express music.

Nokia 6790 surge bought by my close friend Atol, my roomate Ceca and my cousin, Nanee. This mobile tempts me but there's a cheaper one for the same specs.

Nokia X3 bought by my brother-in-law, AJ.

Azrin got himself a Nokia E72

My sister, Nance bought Sony Ericsson Xperia X2

My second sister Lea bought a Sony Ericsson W595.I bought this! Nokia 6303 but later hate it so much cause My thumb hurts so bad from typing too much. the keypad are hard! it is uncomfortable to click on it so.. I exchange with this one..

LG KF300! ^_^

Although the specifications are not as good as the Nokia 6303 and the camera aren't that awesome, Im still taking it as my baby~~ ^_^ I never bought anything pink, so I take this as a new era of my life. chyeee~ green goes with pink, right? ^_^

Im so loving it. the keypad are HUGE~

remember I used to love LG lollipop??

Now, Im eyeing LG Lollipop 2 ^_^ latest model~
i want it~ Green pastel I love you!!

if you have a new one, tell me~ I'll put it here ^_^

My Name is FAKHIRA, and Im not a terrorist.

2010-03-08T05:11:00.000+08:00

Hi! we're back to campus. erkh. no more holidays.. no more going here and there.. but shh! wait. no more going here and there?? harharharrr.. what an understatement. we did went to watch a movie this afternoon. we're planning to watch the tournament but instead we went for.. wanna guess? (see my post's title and y'know it.) ^_^

Six of us, cramped and sardined inside Khaliq's car.. just to watch.. what? hihii.. My Name Is Khan. Its been a while I did not watch Indian movie as Im busy with Kpop world. so, its nice to have something that I used to watch few years back.

Its a beautiful movie. It teaches me a lot.Im 100% sure babah wud love this movie.

OII KAMU!! AMAH KU BALIK OII!!

2010-03-07T21:03:00.004+08:00

6:02pm Airport.

Babah: "Alum gi ia sampai ni. mau2 pkul 6.40 krg."
Aku: "Udah rasaku. tu... (tunjuk arah arrival screen) dari Surabaya.. pukul 5.57 tadi dah sampai.."
Babah: "Eyh nada.. alum tu. ia kata sendiri wah, ia landing pukul 6.40!"
Aku: "screen tu jua nunjuk udah landed!! tu wah!"
Lea: "Bukan atu atin kan..?"

kami pusing.. "ATIN!!!!" yeah!!! Oh my atin udah balik!! Im so happy berabis!! ishk, knapa lah pelik ia berambut keriting.. as Adam said "Antih punya lambut bagas lalu gana ujan du mouk.." Oohh.. hahahaaaa :D

Muka happy ku Atin balik sal bebanan ku lapas~

then kami have a family Dinner arah Kaka's

occupied three table..

Adam's teasing lesha..

KAWIN SI DIBAH DI RIMBA

2010-03-07T20:14:00.009+08:00

Wah.. serius jua tajuk ku atu.. mbari malas.. hahahaaa :D anyway.. tadi kami helen konvoii dari Jrudung ke UBD then pkai sebuah kreta ja ke Rumah Dibah with Hazny. Awu awu.. riuh durg yg kami sampat lagi ke Giant.. awu awu.. makan kami dulu seblom ke kawen c dibah.. heish.. shut up oredy~ hahahaaaaa :D kbulur wah men.. takut batah nunggu di kem.. so kami makan lah dulu arah Giant~ hihihiii gila.. awu labu parut ku..

apologise ah, bukan makanannya nda nyaman.. serious.. I ate jua arah the makan2.. its just my nature to eat and eat and eat.. I havent ate my breakfast coz hazny was lambat berabis mbuatnya kebulur.. I cudnt stand batah2 jua di kem, krg.. aku mati kbulur + heat stroke! hahaha mlampaw aku ah~

best quote ever by Khaliq that I heard today. Nisa was tekajut and asked "Why is pumpkin makan before a function??" Khaliq answered "Pasal.. ia Fakhira." Kima ko liq.. nahass ko! hahahaaaa :D

Anyway, tahniah Adibah & Adam for their wedding take place tadi. Its just the sanding plg tadi but I got the photo masa durang nikah last time. I didnt attend that one.

During the Nikah ^_^ They're pretty..

This is the Sanding tadi.. ^_^ so cute eyh dibah!beautiful couple. May Allah bless y'guys.. ^_^

Arriving di kawasan perumahan Rimba, the crowd thickening berabis.. wahh.. so many people and so banyak kereta that we had to parking sejauh sekilometer dari rumah dibah.. hahaaa.. nda plg ku sure brapa jauhnya.. pi jauh lah! ^_^ batah udah nda bejalan kaki dibawah sinaran terik matahari.. Its fun. Khaliq, Juan and Nisa joined the pack..

We were hoping to sat in one place together with Nursing friends but it seems that every each of us sat separately but we got together after eat ^_^ I even mengayau sana sini just to see who's coming. Mimi Najwa's pack (Norain+Zeezah) were sitting on the right wing of dibah's house, so as Domi, Elza, Syarah, Qamar and others. On the left side there's Kameng's pack and Shidah's pack. That's it ^_^

CONGRATULATIONS ^_^
ADIBAH & ADAM!!